I still have a job

I'm happy about that but I am having an issue with my manager being let go. I feel guilty that we're all still working and she is not. I know that the choice was made by people that have no clue of the work or value that a particular worker has contributed but that just makes me even more upset. I know that she'll be OK and land on her feet, she was a good manager, more importantly she's a good person and I am happy that I can keep her as a friend.

Job...

Will I have one at the end of today????

My boss was given notice yesterday that today is her last day, what does that mean for our group??? I don't know, I'm trying to remain positive and remember that whatever happens is always for a reason.

I'll let ya'll know later

I did it!!!

I'm signed up for the RACC Run into the New Year at State Fair on 12/31/09. I think a trip to REI may be needed so I can get some winter running clothes. I think I'll start my training tonight!

Thanks for the inspiration Joy and Karen. Hope you ladies are with me!

Also, my niece is PERFECT!!! She's such a small little peanut but man is she precious. It was great to hold her yesterday, I definately got my baby fill and we may go visit tonight too so the kids can go see her, well at least A, E could care less but that's the boy in him LOL.

I'm a Great Aunt again

My niece Liz had her baby today. I'm proud of my Lizzie Lou. Out of the 3 kids J's sister had, Liz has always had a soft spot in my heart. I met her when she was a young girl. She asked me what my "full name" was and I told her and she said maybe one day you'll be a "Fidler" too. Who knew that she would be right, that I would marry her uncle. She lived with us a couple of years ago and she's always helped babysit our kids. Now she's a mom herself. I'm looking forward to seeing the baby, Isabelle (Izzie) as soon as I can.

I'm thankful that my nephew's wife kept me updated via text messaging all day today! It really meant a lot and in a small way I felt like I could be a part of her experience.

As a side note....tomorrow is J and my 20th anniversary of us becoming boyfriend and girlfriend. He came to my house to pick me up for a date and he was a little early. He said he had something in his car for me but couldn't bring it in because my neighbors (we lived in a duplex) were outside. As soon as they left, he went and brought in a stuffed dog that had a shirt on it that said; be mine, and 2 roses. He was so cute asking me to be his girlfriend. Good thing I said yes because I'm as happy today as I was 20 years ago. Thank you God for such a wonderful blessing.

Case of the blah's

Every year I get a case of the blah's when J is gone so much hunting. I'm glad that he goes, in his line of work he needs to destress and I know hunting helps. But then there's the cabin this year to keep him busy as well. I'm happy he has this time but it gets hard. I typically get sick during this time because I'm running all around with the kids and such. Yesterday I had a bad upset stomach when I got home with the kids from school, it went away and I was able to enjoy my evening with Karen for dinner. But today I just feel blech. My stomach still isn't 100%. I know the kids just got over some type of flu bug but I feel more that it was induced by my worries of the job, J being gone and my poor kids being sick for the past 2 weeks.

I'm working from home today which is helping. I also called into religion and I will not be teaching tonight or taking the kids in. I need to take E to the allergist for a follow up appt. and then I'm running to the apple farm for a few apples so I can make a pie or two for Friday.

When I get home I'll plan a 10-15 min on the elliptical, not too much but enough to get some exercise in and then rest. Thrilling but its needed.

Germs, Germs and a side of Germs

Man, my poor son can't catch a break. Missed 2 days of school last week with vomiting and now he has a cold. He had to stay home today because he had a fever at school yesterday. He has gunk in his chest, I can hear it but the medicine I got seems to be breaking it up and he has a more productive cough which is good. I'm hoping my daughter stays healthy.

On the exercising front, enough is enough. I read a friends blog and she wants to make some changes and it started with her hair, another friend set up her exercise room in her basement to kick off her weight loss and I've gained some inspiration. My question is why do we fall off the wagon? I don't know, I wish I did because then I wouldn't do it any more. I can say that I've always struggled with confidence. I want to be a strong example for my kids, that's what sparked my first weight loss effort. I need to go back to that, I want to be a strong example for my kids. I have a lot of lessons I can teach them about being healthy, enjoying life and always trying new things.

After this post I will go and sign up for my next 1/2 marathon. I will be doing the Cheesy 1/2 marathon on May 1st. I've given it some thought and the course was just OK in my opinion but I'm thinking I had a really bad training experience and I want a second go at that course. I believe that if I would have trained properly I would have enjoyed the experience more. So I'm going for it....I want to conquer that course and feel good about it! I have some friends that have their sites on the Madison 1/2 (hopefully they'll both be healthy!!!) and I was going to join them but for my personal reasons I need to run in Kenosha again.

Today I got on the TM and did some intervals as I haven't run in awhile, I did 2 min walking/2 min running. I only did a couple and was on the TM for 20 min. I need to work back up since I've not been running with any consistency. I know I can do this!! I am worth the time I will take to train! I know this will help me with the everyday stresses and things I worry about. This will make me a better wife and mother!! This is for me and I'm worth it!!!

Corporate America

So today my company is merging with Fidelity (FIS). Nerves are running wild here because no one really knows if they will have a job within the next few months. Our group is one of those, we have no clue what the upper mgmt has planned for our team. There is not an equivalent group with FIS so that could mean that they will find value in our team and then I'm sure our roles will be expanded or it could mean, they've been working without a Source Code Management team and they don't feel its necessary. It really could go either way. I try to think positive but its hard either way. I know that if my job is eliminated I will land on my feet and I will find something new. If my job is safe then I think it opens the door to new opportunities and that will be good. But I just still have an uneasy feeling. I think its the unknown. No one knows what's going to happen and that's hard. I'm typically a planner and in this situation I can't plan and that's a little difficult for me.

Another situation I'm dealing with is the kids. They are both sick and throwing up. J stayed home with them today as he's off of work. I'm happy he finally has to take care of the kids as that usually falls to my shoulders. Which is OK but I'm just wiped out myself. And I tell you I better NOT get sick too. LOL