Back to Basics

So with the holiday's my son's birthday and everything else I took a couple of weeks off of working out and man do I feel it. I'm feeling very negative about my body so we need to get on that quick so I don't go into a downward spiral. Tonight after work I am headed for the elliptical. I'm going to start with a 20 min preset workout and then gradually increase my time to get back to where I was.

I've been asked by my friend that ran the Cheesy Marathon with me last year to run another one. She was thinking Door County. I'm really trying to decide if I want to run 2 1/2 marathons next year or not. I'm thinking I should set the goal and achieve it as I didn't last year. But I'm hesitant because I don't know if it will be too much for me. Or perhaps it's just what I need. Make myself be more structured and focused on fitness.

I just don't know. But I do know that I need to make up my mind soon, the New Year is just around the corner.

Sometimes I Thank God for the things.....

That don't happen.

This weekend we blew a fuse and we couldn't get it reset. We called our neighbor who is an electrician and it was bad! He indicated that it could have been so much worse. Whatever happened melted wires and we are lucky that it didn't go through the rest of the wires and through the walls and burn the house down.

So sometimes I am very thankful for the things that don't happen! Right now with having another family living with us, and it being winter, and the holidays I'm very happy that the burning of the wires didn't continue. I believe God was watching out for us all and for that I'm Thankful!!!

Where does the time go?

Today is my son's birthday. It's hard to believe that it's been 10 years. It begs the question "Where does the time go?" It really is amazing how quickly it goes by. Each year as the kids turn a year older I do get misty eyed and weepy. I try to enjoy each and every moment with my family and when they turn a year older it just really reminds me that it goes by so quickly, I want to be sure I'm enjoy as much of them as I can.

It's not only the kids that I want to enjoy but it's life too and whatever life throws at me, good or bad. So let's reflect...what has life thrown me this year?? It really has been a good year. For the most part I've been healthy, I am having issues with my weight but have no ailments. I finished another 1/2 marathon posting my best time yet. I've traveled overseas for the first time. I've lived through my daughter starting middle school. I've spent time enjoying friends and family. In moving my mom I found old pictures from my childhood. It made me face all the things that happened back then and I'm working through those "issues" and putting those bad experiences behind me.

Things don't look too bad, it's been a good year. I believe I've become a stronger individual but I also know I have lots to learn about myself, life and becoming the person I strive to be.

The Flu

Eeek our family has been stricken by the stomach flu. First starting with my daughter and then to the rest of the family over the weekend. We are now all feeling better so that's a good thing.

The arrangement with the family of 3 that moved in is going well. There doesn't appear to be too much stress in the house and we are enjoying the Holiday season. I wanted to be sure I wasn't too stressed or overwhelmed with the holidays, kids' birthdays or the new house guests and so far we've been successful!

In the next few weeks I will be looking at some fitness goals for next year. I know I want to complete 1 1/2 marathon and I think that will be in September for the Air Force 1/2 Marathon. I'm still trying to decide if I want to do a spring one or not. I'm just not sure what I want to do yet but admittadly I haven't had time to think about it.

Life

Life is good. The extra family living in our small home hasn't presented any issues so that's good. I enjoy having a 1 year old in the house again and I enjoy even more that I can give her to mom and dad if she's getting cranky!!! My kids have transitioned well too. I did have some concerns but so far so good.

And, I got most my Christmas shopping done and the items wrapped!! I'm really attempting to just enjoy the holiday season, the music, the lights, the get togethers, the food, everything!! So cheers to all my readers....I wish you all a joyous holiday season!

Let the Chaos begin...

Yesterday I had my niece and her fiance and their 1 year old daughter move in. They are going through a ruff patch and trying to juggle, work, school and a family. My nephew-in-law also just lost his job. They really needed a break. I just hope that I don't become too overwhelmed with all the activity that will be in the house. I will take each day as it comes and try to not let things bother me.

The holidays are also beginning, one of my favorite times of the year. The Turkey has been consumed, the Christmas Decorations are up...now all I need to do is begin my shopping. Not my favorite thing but it will be fine.

Back to Running

So I've taken off running for awhile and tried other exercises. While I enjoyed the other exercises last week I ran twice and I enjoyed every moment of it. Once was outside and the other inside. I miss it and I think I'll be incorporating more running to my daily routines. I like the variety of the strength training and other types of cardio so I'll continue to mix it up. It's keeping me happy, fit and is reducing my stress levels.

No new updates on my mom and her move saga. She's acting now like nothing ever happened and she didn't freak out on us etc. It's just par for the course. I really need to figure a way to not let things bother or affect me. It's easier said than done. When looking through some pictures I found a card I gave my mom years ago before marriage and kids and it said some really nice things.....the trouble is I don't have any of those same feelings. And then comes the guilt that I don't feel that way any more. How do I get past this? I do I learn to not care as much? How do I not let her affect me in a negative manner? All good questions yet very hard to answer.

On another note, a more positive one, the kids birthday's are coming up. Each year I look at them and recall all the moments of their young lives. They really are growing up to be wonderful people and this makes me proud. On Friday the kids exclaimed that "they bonded" LOL. Yep, a whole 5-10 minutes of bonding in the car....I guess I'll take it when I can get it!

Reflections

So last week I took a vacation day along with my husband and brother to help my mom move. It really was a day that I wish I didn't have to take. I know that sounds cold and heartless but I'm tired of helping my mom with stuff and never feeling appreciated for it. It's frustrating and I'm coming to my end.

The day started at 7am. She wasn't even awake yet. We start down in the basement with crap (and I mean crap). She has boxes of stuff that she uses, another that is garbage and then another that is to be donated. We empty the basement and move up to her actual apartment and it's trashed (and I mean trashed). We don't know where to begin. Some stuff is in boxes but most is not. Everything is dirty, dusty and full of cat hair. We start moving stuff out, some to the rented van, some to the garbage and some to the donation pile. It takes 1/2 a day to get everything out and packed into all available vehicles. Then we move it. We aren't able to unpack as another company is moving another couple and they have use of the elevator so we break for lunch.

After lunch we start unpacking and it feels as if there is no end. We are all losing our patience as we unpack the moving van, place stuff by the elevator, once we have enough stuff we load the elevator, up to the second floor we go, unload and then have to move all the items to her apartment. It was a lot of hard work.

Something got broken and my mom freaked out. Well, if it were packed correctly, like in a box and not just a plastic bag perhaps it wouldn't have broke. Of course we somehow get blamed for that. Then she has to leave because my husband left her outdoor furniture too close to where the donated items are and she doesn't want them to take it. Again there's the blame game instead of taking responsibility.

We are finishing unloading and picking up our son from a friend's house and we're told that the Salvation Army doesn't want any of the stuff she has set out. Now we get to pack the moving van again to take the items to Goodwill. What a mess. We move one last mini van load to her new apt. and then were off. No thank yous nothing.

Then the weekend comes and the game playing begins. My mom calls up my brother and yells at him for he and my husband leaving all kinds of heavy stuff behind and now she has to call in sick all weekend to take care of it. Um, this is YOUR STUFF, YOU CAN MOVE IT!! And it's a lie, she was planning the day off because she wanted my daughter to help her clean up the old place and unpack at the new one. My daughter changed her mind and didn't go.

Sunday comes around and I get called that she needs my help, only an hour or an hour and a half. Um, my son is sick, I am sick and I'm sorry but the Packer's are on. I told her I couldn't help until after 4 because I wasn't leaving a sick kid. She said "he's not sick, he's just playing you". She then decides she'll call my brother to help. Around noon (just before kick off) she says she needs my van, all the stuff won't fit into her car (um, make multiple trips). So I take my van, look at all her crap and just take her keys and leave. I'm not feeling well enough to help her and my son didn't want me to leave. I tell her that and again I get..."he's just playing you".

Couple hours later I get a call and she's stopped by my brother's house, barged in and stated that he needed to help her to unload the van because she's just too sore. We'll what about us my brother says, we're sore too. He begrudgingly goes to help her unpack and yell at her to try and knock some sense into her.

She drops the van back to my house, looks at my son and feels his face and says he has a fever....No REALLY???? I TOLD YOU HE WAS SICK.

It's just a joke. There was no thank you for taking vacation time to help. There was no thank you for working as hard as we did. There was no thank you for using the van. There was no thank you besides her paying for lunch. It's just frustrating, I'm tired of having to parent a 64 year old woman.

I don't get why she hoards, I don't get why she plays games, I just don't get it. It's upsetting to me. I don't like her game playing or manipulation and it really shows me that I don't want to be like that!!!

All I can say is Lord give me strength!

Highs and Lows

This week was an up and down kind of week. I tried on a dress and it didn't fit which sent me into an emotional spiral downward. I felt sorry for myself, wondering why it is I'm working out blah blah blah. The good news, is I snapped out of it and I'm doing what is right. I went out with my SIL and picked out a new dress and shoes to match and that helped boost my spirits.

Life is a roller coaster, the good things in life don't come easily as well they shouldn't. I don't want things handed to me. I believe in hard work and I know that I will be rewarded.

Walking

So my knee is a little sore from all the squats and lunges of the exercise programs I have been following so I decided to give it a rest and take a walk for my daily exercise. It was so nice and peaceful. I really have missed walking/running outdoors. The sounds of the leaves crunching under foot was so nice and peaceful. I walked a couple of miles and had a smile on my face when I reached home.

Amazing how going back to basics can really change your mood.

21 years ago....

My husband asked me to be his girlfriend. He was so sweet and it was so cute, he presented me with 2 roses and a stuffed dog that had "be mine" on his shirt (I still have it!).

I'm not sure why I was so lucky to find true love at a young age but I'm very thankful and I cherish each and everyday together. Even the days that we don't fully see eye to eye, he still makes me happy and I fall in love with him more each and every day.

Level 2

Yesterday I moved on to level 2 of the 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michaels and Oh My Goodness, what a work out!!! It definitely tested me, my strength and my will to continue. She wasn't lying when she said "if we make claims to get you into shape in 30 days and only in 20 minutes the work out is going to be tough and challenging". Well that it is but I feel good. I really like her style and once I master this program (I'm thinking it will be extended past 30 days) I'm going to see what other videos she has out there. I like the way she motivates me to push myself and to know that being healthy and strong doesn't come for free. It takes work, just like all good things in life.

I am not one of those people who want things handed to them, I want to work and earn it. Then it makes it that much more rewarding when you're successful. Would it be nice to be handed things every once in awhile, sure. Would it be nice to not have to work so hard to be healthier, sure but where's the lesson in that? What will I gain if I have everything handed to me? NOTHING, I won't learn all the lessons life has for me.

I'm Happy

What a lovely weekend. My Aunt, Uncle and Cousin came over on Saturday for our annual trip to the pumpkin farm. When I look at my cousin I can't believe how big he's getting. He is now 6 and such a handsome little fellow. It's hard to believe that it was 7+ years ago that I approached my aunt and let her know that I would be a surrogate for her and my uncle if they wanted. They took me up on that offer and when I see them as a family together I know things are the way they should be! They should be a family and they are WONDERFUL parents. It's so great to see them in that role and see how happy they are. Knowing I had a part in that makes me very happy.

I had a good weekend with the family too. I felt we all got more connected and just enjoyed being a family ourselves and that's a wonderful feeling to have. It really filled my heart with happiness and joy.

Hopefully this will be a quiet week and I can continue being happy, there's no other feeling like it! :)

Shred

I finished the Slim in 6 exercise program and although the scale didn't move much I did tone up and became stronger. By the end of the 6 weeks the exercises that I thought were tough became easy. I definately increased my arm strength and that makes me happy. I was able to complete the push up section which has always been a struggle for me.

Today I will start The 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. It's only a 20 minute work out so I'll have to see if I need to add something more to my daily workouts. There are 3 different levels of the workout meaning you start on level one, then go to two and then three. I'm not sure at what days you move to the next level, I guess I'll find that out tonight. Perhaps I can combine the levels for a longer workout. We'll see. I might just add some walking in since this week is supposed to be another week of warm weather. It will be nice to walk outside and hear the crunching of the leaves under foot.

On another note, I talked with my brother yesterday. This is my brother from Illinios and it's only been a few years that I've known he was my brother and can I just say that it was a WONDERFUL talk. I really am blessed and feel so fortunate to have this added family to my life. When I was little I longed for a bigger family, to have people that lived closer to us. All our family was a couple hours away. I understand now that because of my mom's lies she put distance between family and us and it was hard growing up. It didn't help that we had an aweful situation that we were living in and there was no one to help, it was just us. Talking with family now they had no idea what had happened to us as kids and it's not there fault and I'm not sure they would have been able to do anything. It wasn't something that we talked about when we saw family or anyone for that matter. No one wants to come out and say they have been abused and that their stepfather is a drunk blah blah blah. But on a positive note, if I didn't have the childhood I had I'm afraid I wouldn't be as grateful or thankful for the many wonderful things in my life.

Week 6

I'm on the final week of my Slim in 6 workout program. My knee is feeling a little sore with all the squats and lunges so it will be nice to move on to something else.

Over the past 6 weeks I see myself toning, which is good. The scale has gone down 4 and then back up 2 so I'm not pleased about that but, again, I'm toning and doing more strength training. At the beginning of this program it was difficult for me to do 3 or 4 push ups, now I'm pumping out 25 at a pop. So I'm seeing positive differences and I need to focus on those and not necessarily the scale.

What's next????

Well I just ordered Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred so I'll be doing that for 30 days to see how that goes. There is more cardio in that workout so hopefully that will help with the scale movement.

After the 30 Day Shred I need to take a look at what runs I want to do next year. I WILL DEFINITELY BE DOING THE AIR FORCE 1/2 MARATHON IN SEPTEMBER!!! I didn't do it this year and I vow to run that run next year. I am also thinking of doing one in Spring. The friends I ran with last year are both game again this year so I'm thinking I may sign up for one in Door County. We'll see but I really should start taking a look at what's out there and set some goals.

Frustration

I've been working out now for 5 weeks, I'm feeling better, I feel as if I'm toning up, I'm eating healthier so why isn't the scale moving??? I know that I am doing what is good for me and I'm making wise choices but darn it why isn't the scale moving???

I'm still going to push through and continue to keep myself healthy and hopefully the scale will move. I will NOT get discouraged and I will continue to stay positive.

Sick

So I've been sick since last week with a head cold. I'm on the mend so that's a good thing. I haven't worked out since last week and I've missed it. I'm going to give it a shot tonight afterwork but I will not push myself. My body needs to heal and I'll give it time to do that.

Everything else has been quiet, and it's been nice!

Week 4

It is the start of week 4 of my work out routine and eating healthier. I'm happy to be on track. And let me tell you that week 4 of the Slim in 6 is called "Burn it Up" for a reason. I can feel some soreness in my muscles but that's OK, it's a good feeling. But the video is definitely a step up from the previous level and gets you working hard. More cardio seems to be added to this routine as well which is nice. Really gets the heart rate going while also working on strength training.

I haven't been this committed to a program besides for running. It feels good to be working out and taking the time and it not feeling like it's such a chore. I actually look forward to working out and on my day off (Sunday's) I do feel as if I'm missing something from my day. Trust me though, my body thanks me for the day off :)

Things seem to be coming together. I do still get frustrated when some of my clothes don't fit just right but I've slowly been gaining weight for years so it will take time for the pounds to come off. I have to be patient and not at any point get discouraged. When I joined WW the first time around it took 8 months to lose the weight, it may take that time again and that's OK...it's the healthy way to lose weight, I'm setting myself up for long term as opposed to losing a lot of weight fast only to see it come back on in a few months time.

On a side note, today I celebrate 14 years of marriage. My husband is wonderful and these past 14 years have been wonderful and fulfilling. I'm not sure how I got so lucky but I don't take it for granted. I cherish the gift of my husband and my beautiful family.

Another 2 pounds

GONE....That's right...I lost another 2 pounds and I'm so HAPPY. I'm happy to be back on my game! I'm happily staying focused on my food consumption, I'm staying focused on my exercising.

I truly believe that this is happening all because of Accupunture. It really has got my energy flowing the way that it should and exercising and eating right no longer feels like a chore. It's a way of life, just as it used to be.

Lesson Learned

So I found out yesterday from my SIL that she saw my daughter has a facebook account. I confronted my daughter and she confessed. This morning I was looking into her account (as I had plans that took me away from home yesterday otherwise I would have looked at it then) and I see that she has had it since about April. This was the time that she was rebelling a little bit and looking to get into some mischief. I can also tell that by the posting, she was posting a lot then, and not so much since she got in trouble at the end of last school year.

I'm happy that the posting is down, I'm happy that she wasn't posting anything negative, I'm happy that she came to me this morning and apologized and was in tears because she knew that she was wrong and that she broke some of my trust.

I am not happy that she lied to me, I'm not happy that I found out from someone else. I am not happy that I haven't been monitoring this more closely. I'm not happy that she went behind my back and wasn't honest about this.

I have learned that I do trust my kids, but they are kids and they will do sneaky things behind their parents backs. I did, but I stayed out of trouble and didn't do anything bad. I will be staying diligent on their internet useage. At this time she's lost all internet privileges and I'll be in the market for a laptop so that all internet useage is done upstairs in the kitchen or living room where I can see it, not in the basement. You better believe there will be monitoring software on there as well.

Who ever said that parenting gets easier when the kids get older was WRONG!! :)

Small loss but Big Gains!!

This week I was down almost a half pound. Not a big loss but it's a loss. With being up north over the weekend there was some ice cream and kettle corn ingested but I've gained so much confidence!!!

I am on week 2 of working out to my 6 week program, I even got up this morning early to work out because I knew that the evening would be tough as I've got some church meetings and other stuff. I haven't been this dedicated for a long time.

I'm planning meals and tracking my food via Weight Watchers. I've been doing that for 2 weeks as well. The only exception was when I was up north without the computer. I did keep track of what I ate and made good decisions but did allow myself some treats.

My attitude is still sunny and up beat.

As you can see there are so many positives that are happening and I believe it's because I'm focused, being smart about my choices and putting myself first but yet being there for my family. I'm feeling good, happy, encouraged and proud. All feelings I haven't felt for a long time. It feels good.

2 pounds

Since recommitting to Weight Watchers 1 week ago I've lost 2 pounds. Can I just say that I am so motivated and encouraged. I know if you go back over my blog posts it's been like a yo yo but this time is different. I'm in the frame of mind I was 7 years ago when I joined WW. I think it's because my energy is flowing correctly and I have the motivation and the heart to do it. I'm in the right place. I truly feel like I used to, full of life, energy, happy. I've missed myself and I'm sure my family and friends have too.

Not running....

So based on Saturday's activity I've decided to NOT run in Sept. My body is just not ready. I don't want to risk injury or mental disappointment so I think it's best I sit this one out. It was a hard decision to come to but one I am at peace with so that is good.

Yesterday I started a 6 week program called Slim in 6 by Beach Body. I've had these dvd's forever and only got to the second level. I'm committed to working this for 6 weeks, that coupled with eating healthy, getting in my water, fruits, veggies and everything that is good for me I think it will be a step in the right direction for me. I'm making the time to work out, and actually my husband did the work out with me and he said he would do it again today after we're off of work. It's nice to have a partner to exercise with and it's nice that it's my husband!!

This is the week that the kids start back to school. I'm excited for them yet I always get a little sad....it's amazing how quickly time goes. The kids are getting so big so fast. I am just trying to enjoy each and every moment with them and I'm trying to let them know how much I love them and how proud I am of them!

Ugh

So acupuncture has been going well and I've been feeling really good. Even my daughter made a comment that I wasn't so crabby all the time and that made me feel good. The only thing that hasn't changed has been my weight and that's been frustrating so I talked to the acupuncturist yesterday and he will be helping me with that. But I did have to step on the scale and man it was a rude awakening. The number isn't what I thought it was and it really opened my eyes. I'm not taking care of myself well that stops now! It has to!! Today is a new day! I'm taking some different Chinese herbs to go along with the other ones for my mood and they are supposed to help my metabolism. Plus I need to commit to a regular exercise program. Which brings me to my run next month.....

I'm not sure I should do it. I haven't trained well at all. I'm physically not ready and I'm not mentally either. Do I take that into consideration and say "don't do the run, take care of myself?" Or do I just do the run no matter how bad I'll feel? I'm not sure what to do. I am planning an hour and a half run this weekend so I'll see how that goes and perhaps make my decision then. I'm leaning to not doing it at all and set that goal for next year.

So as of today I am taking care of myself! I am making myself a priority! I am feeling better now that my hormones are in place, now I just want to be happy with my appearance and I want to be healthy!!! I am worth the effort and I deserve to be happy with myself.

Now if I can just remember that during the hard times that would be good!

Headaches...

The past few days I've been having headaches, I mention it to the acupuncturist yesterday and today I'm headache free. No dull pain/pressure behind my eyes, no feeling over tired. It just amazes me how acupuncture works. I'm not going to question it, all I know is that it seems to be helping me and I continue to feel like I've gotten myself back. What an amazing feeling I tell you!

Running update...well there isn't much of one. It's been humid so more of my runs have been indoors. I'm not that prepared for next month's run but I'm on vacation next week so I can really focus on getting back on track and hitting the training hard.

Yesterday a friend of mine had a clothing party, I hesitated to go only because I'm not very fashionable. I've always dreaded trying on clothes because of my shape. Never really liked picking out a dozen items to try on and having only one of them actually fit. So I went, and the clothes were very nice. They really showed you how to put them together for casual wear or dressing it up etc. The trouble...the price. Man it was very expensive. I did buy one piece and it was expensive, the most money I've ever spent on one item (excluding my wedding dress). But seeing all these clothes and the style really made me want to go shopping elsewhere, you know where I can actually buy a couple outfits for the price of the 1 item I purchased yesterday. I liked seeing all the nice, comfortable clothing and I really liked that my daughter was with me and we were picking out things together. So to all my readers...if anyone wants to help me shop (hint hint Deanna) perhaps I'm not a lost cause :)

Squishy

So after my 45 minute run on the treadmill yesterday (because it was just too humid out to want to run outdoors) I'm stretching and feeling good. My son then comes over and says "mom your getting fatter" and then he proceeds to poke my belly and says "squishy squishy".

Well that deflated the high I was on after the run. I know I've gained a few pounds dealing with hormones etc but that just hurt. He's 9 years old so he should really know better on not hurting people's feelings especially those he's close to. But I forget, he is just a kid and doesn't fully understand how to use his filter just yet.

Weight has always been something I struggle with but I have noticed since picking up the running and acupuncture I've dropped a few pounds, not sure how many as I'm scared to get on a scale so I'm judging by the way my clothes are fitting. I never wanted to be super skinny, I just want to be healthy, and that's all I want for my kids.

I did go on another walk last night for National Night Out. Our block watch sponsored a walk around the neighborhood so I took part and I started to feel better. I'm not as hurt today as I was yesterday, I just need to continue to be sure I'm making healthy choices, continue with my running and activity and everything will take care of itself. I just hate to have to deal with the issue of weight, as woman we deal with it all the time and it seems to never get better, not even with age. Last week at acupuncture there was an older lady, late 60's early 70's and she said she weighed 118 lbs but still wanted to take some herbs to lose weight since it was all in her belly. The doctor told her she didn't need them, she was just perfect. And she was, she just didn't see it. I really don't want to be that way when I'm her age....the question is how? I guess it's all in life lessons.

Feeling Lucky

So it's another Tuesday and I'm feeling good. I haven't had a major case of the crankies since acupuncture which is WONDERFUL. It's a great feeling to feel as if I'm back to my old self. I know I'm not fully cured but with continued treatment I'm feeling optimistic.

I'd also like to take some time to say how lucky we were.....Last week with the rains that came through we had some flooding, the water was coming through our basement window, it was like someone turned on a faucet. Items were ruined and carpeting needed to be dried but we were lucky. I think of my brother and SIL who had at least 3 ft of water in their basement and water coming through their front door. One stranded motorist on their street had to swim to safety. Crazy I tell you! They lost all the big items in the basement and 1 of their cars has been totalled, their SUV is having problems too and may also be totalled, all depends on what the insurance company says. There are so many stories as theirs that I'm feeling lucky that I only had minor issues. All the families with major storm damage to their homes, cars and everything else my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Another reason to feel lucky, is I have my health. My cousin's husband when to get a melanoma removed from his back and they thought it could be cancerous. They didn't tell anyone until Friday and stated that testing would be done by Monday and they'd let us know the results. Well power of prayer worked and he is cancer free! I'm very excited for them, I know that must have been a difficult time for them.

I also have a friend who's grandfather is dying. He comes every summer to spend time with family and he told them all he has cancer and there is nothing that can be done. He's been given 9 months or so to live. I know my friend is having a hard time with this. She is very close to her Grandfather. I know that I'm lucky to have my Grandfather still with me. He will be 90 this year so I know that he is aging and won't always be with us. He is special to me as he was really my only father figure as a kid. He would have me sit on his lap and he would just scratch my back for hours. There would always be an ample supply of cookies, gum and love when I would visit their house. I'm happy to have those memories and I'm happy to continue making more with him while he's alive.

A year in review?

So a friend of mine, Joy, blogged about the last year of her life and the things she's accomplished over this past year and challenged her readers to do the same...so here goes.

Professionally: I was getting a little bored and unchallenged at work so I took the initiative to take on more responsibility. This was proved to be a move in the right direction. I am learning many new things, gaining more respect from my co-workers and the individuals I help. No day is the same so it keeps things interesting. I am concerned with keeping my job but that has nothing to do with me or my performance and everything to do with take overs and buy outs.

Running: Last May I completed my second 1/2 marathon and I was not pleased with the performance or the dedication I had to training so I signed up for the same 1/2 marathon this May. I was determined to beat the course and not let the course beat me. I trained well, inspired 2 other friends to run along with me and I posted my best time yet. It was a great experience and I was happy to have my family there cheering me across the finish line. I've also added another 1/2 marathon in September that I will be completing in Ohio.

Health: I've had relatively good health this past year, no major illness or anything like that. I have had to deal with my hormones and weight gain which I believe is related to my hormonal issues. It's difficult to describe how terrible I have been feeling over the past year because of this issue. I've visited the doctor with no real answers and feeling defeated. But I haven't given up. I'm off the Birth Control pills and decided to go the route of acupuncture and so far I must say there are many benefits. I'm hoping that this will trickle down into all aspects of my life.

Marriage: I'm married to a wonderful man and I'm happy to say that our marriage continues to grow and become stronger. My husband is a wonderful partner and I fall in love with him more each day.

Kids: My kids are wonderful and it's amazing to watch them grow into young adults. It's hard to believe that time is going by so quickly. There have been struggles but that is part of life and that's what will make the kids become strong adults. No matter the troubles they always know that I love them and will be there for them and I'm proud of them for their accomplishments.

Parents: My relationship with my mom has been becoming very different. I love her but I don't always like the choices she has made or continues to make. I am struggling with her past choices and the different lives that she has affected by some of those choices....she just has no clue the damage she's done. I can't fault her for making those decisions years ago but I can fault her for the way she is reacting to them now and the way that she has treated me. I have found in the last year that I'm standing up to her now, not holding my feelings inside, I'm letting them be known.

Overall it's been a good year. I've had struggles but those don't compare to the many blessings I have. I have a loving family, wonderful friends and I can do things that I enjoy. I am thankful for each and every day and I continue to try and learn from those around me and appreciate everything life has to offer, even the hard times.

A good workout

Yesterday morning it looked like rain so I decided to keep my workouts indoors. I hit the elliptical for 35 minutes, punched the punching bag for awhile (which was WONDERFUL- a great way to release stress) and then did some push ups and planks. I felt good, even this morning I can tell I worked out those muscles and they feel wonderful. Could it be that acupuncture is actually working and getting me feeling better and motivated to workout and live my life without the fear of being cranky, too tired or unmotivated? I guess time will tell if I'm just having a good week or if there is some truth to the acupuncture. I go for my 3rd session today and I find myself looking forward to it.

Yesterday was also the Napa to Sonoma run in CA. My friend Karen ran again this year with CCFA. It brings me back to my first memories of wanting to run a half marathon. Karen made it sound so wonderful and the scenery of running in Napa really appealed to me. Running with CCFA was a wonderful experience but overwhelming with the training and the commitment to fundraising. But I'm so happy that I ran it. I met new friends that I still have contact with today (waving to Joy and Joe) and I've learned so much from these people. No matter how much I've struggled I've still had these people in my corner. Cheering me on, pushing to be a better runner and a better person.

I will be drawing on their strength, support and experience as I gear up for my 4th 1/2 marathon in September. Thanks Guys!!

Why is it...

That my mom continues to frustrate me so? So here's the latest, my aunt and uncle were having a birthday party for their son (this is the family I was a surrogate for...I can't believe it's been 6 years already, amazing how time flies). When they were in the planning process my aunt sent out an email asking family which date worked better for us. Everyone responded and based on that and their schedule she set up a date that was last week Saturday. My mom's computer went down at home so she wasn't able to check emails (she didn't realize she could check emails from any active computer that has Internet but that's another story) so when we got back from Germany she asked when the party was. I told her and she indicated that she was working. I also then showed her how to check her emails from another computer and she sat at my computer for over an hour reading them so she would have seen the date then as well.

So at the party my aunt and uncle asked where she was and I said working, my aunt was under the impression that she had off on Saturdays. I thought so too but there are times that she has worked and I can't keep track of my own schedule how can I keep track of hers too?

Yesterday was my niece's birthday so my mom called and then talked to my brother and she found out that the party was this past weekend. Her comment was "I thought it was in a couple of weeks?" She then proceeded to tell my brother "I don't know what the hell is wrong with your sister, she knew my computer didn't work so she should have told me". Ummm I DID TELL YOU. I get blamed for all of this type of garbage. This is your brother's son, you should be following up on your own to find out when things are. It is not my responsibility since you know I have kids and work and this and that.

I got an email this morning from my aunt stating that my mom called them last night crying and apologizing for not being there. They told her not to worry about it that it wasn't a big deal. I have no doubt that when I see her on Sunday that I will hear about this and she will make it a big deal. I on the other hand will not make this a big deal and I will NOT LET HER MAKE THIS MY FAULT. I'm just sick and tired of being blamed for things that are her issue, not mine. She's 63 years old, she needs to GROW UP.

OK, sorry for the vent, I just needed to let it out.

On a better note, my second session of acupuncture was yesterday and it went well.

First session

The first acupuncture session went fine....not sure why I was worried. For the first 2 weeks he wants me to come 2 times and then we'll go from there. Because my issues are older it takes longer to resolve them.

I got home and got drilled by my husband and kids asking what they did. I had needles in my ears, wrist, stomach, ankle and big toe. He hooked up some electrodes to some of them and put a heat lamp on my stomach and there I laid for 30 minutes trying to relax. He gave me some Chinese Herbs (in pill form) and I have to take 8 of them a day and I made another appointment for Thursday.

This morning I do feel slightly different, I'm not sure that I can explain it. Not sure if it's my mind playing tricks on me or if indeed my Yin and Yang and starting to work together once again. I guess the true test will be how quickly get irritated with things, since it's been very quickly lately. I'm sure it doesn't help that my kids always seem to be bickering. I guess they've had too much of each other during summer vacation.

Relief in Sight?

I made my first appointment for Acupuncture today...we'll see how it goes. I'm hoping to find some relief. I'm a tad nervous, not sure why. Perhaps because I think this is my last resort and if this doesn't work what am I going to do?? I'm trying to stay positive, I just have to remain that way and know that relief will come soon enough.

Keep your fingers crossed everyone!

Acupuncture

So, my hormones are still out of whack and I'm getting tired of dealing with it and I'm just not sure what to do about it. I'm off the birth control which makes me happy, I never liked taking those and it wasn't doing anything to help keep my hormones in check. I've been taking some vitamins, this is only my 3rd month and they are just OK...not really doing anything more than the BC was but I'm not sure how quickly this stuff gets into my system. Plus it's not a bad thing to take vitamins so I'll continue taking them. So I talked to my SIL who is a nurse and asked for her advice and she mentioned acupuncture. I did some research and it seems as if it could help me so I think I'm going to go for it. I don't know what else to do so we'll see if this makes a difference.

I checked with my insurance company and they don't pay for it so I'll be using my own money which is fine, I'm just hoping it will help. The people I've talked to swear by it so we'll see. I'm just not sure how it will help fix hormone issues but I'm willing to get it a try. My husband keeps calling it "Voodoo Medicine" so I'm hoping to prove him wrong :)

In a Funk

I'm in a funk lately and really want to get back to normal, well what ever normal is. I will start training next week for my next 1/2 marathon so perhaps that will help get me back on track. Let's hope for the best.

Home Sweet Home

My trip to Germany was wonderful but it sure is nice to be home!!! I missed the kids and the pets and my own bed *sigh*

So here's an brief update of our trip....

We headed to Germany and saw an old WWII bridge that was bombed by the US, it was a big victory us and stopping the spread of Germany goods across the country. What was left of the bridge was old but interesting. In the museum they had many items related to the war and the people that lived around the area. We then stopped for ice cream in the small village and it was ever so tasty and refreshing. Then off to a military base to check into our hotel (the couple were with are military) and out to dinner in Duddeldorf Germany. Our first dinner and it was oh so yummy. I can't believe how delicious it was. We then walked around the village and walked through a field full of poppies. The colors were wonderful and brilliant.

The next day we headed to Luxenburg to see an old fort, church and rome around the Casements. Casements were built as passages to protect the city. It was a lot of fun to rome around the old parts of the city and imagine how they were used. We then headed for some more sites in Germany. In Triar we were able to see the oldest standing Roman bridge. We walked the streets of the city and stopped for drinks and watched the people stroll by.

Next we headed to the city of Cochem and they have a wonderful castle that we toured. The castle is at the top of a hill and when you're up there you can look down upon the city. The sites were amazing and we were surrounded by vineyards, how perfect is that?? We then went to another castle, Burg Eltz. This castle was down in a valley and was just beautiful. The furnishings were all so old, the scenery was amazing and it is still owned by the original family. We enjoyed a lunch there and took in the sites. One more castle was on the agenda (the name escapes me). It was a beautiful afternoon where we also stayed and enjoyed a drink in the afternoon sun. Then we headed back to Sonsbeck where we were staying.

Monday led us to an old site of a concentration camp in the Netherlands. Although the nothing of the compound remains today there were markers where some of the prisoners were killed. It was sad but I felt as if the visit was to pay tribute to those who had to endure such evils. After that it was off to Amsterdam. We enjoyed our canal tours, lunch at a random restaurant and our trip to the Red Light District. This place isn't for the faint of heart, there are drugs every where "Coffee Houses" are code where you can buy and spoke pot. There are girls behind windows for sale (gives a whole new meaning to window shopping). We saw a guy on using the public urinal and snorting cocaine at the same time. The Red Light District is only a couple of blocks long but man, it's just crazy.

Tuesday we were off to Brugge Belgium and can I just say that the waffles there are amazing, nothing like the Belgium waffles in the States. The food was so wonderful and don't get me started on the chocolates LOL. We enjoyed our stay at a castle that was converted to a bed and breakfast. It was so wonderful and well I did pretend that it was "my castle" and I was a princess. Kind of childish but who cares.

The next day there were more sites in Belgium to be scene and of course another waffle had to be eaten and more chocolate to be purchased.

Thursday was a trip to London. We only had a day and there was so much to see and do and we fit as much in as we could. We saw the normal sites, Big Ben, Parliament, Buckingham Palace, London Bridge, London Tower and London Tower Bridge. We even ate a traditional meal of fish and chips. I also did purchase some tea for home.

Friday was a shopping day to get some gifts for family. We also enjoyed a little German town called Kevilar (sp??). A gentleman in a bakery just loved Americans so he added tasty treats to our order. He was a kind man originally from Kosevo (sp??)

Saturday we visited two more cities, Koln and Aachen. In Koln we climbed the tower of an old church and I kid you not it had to have had close to a 1000 steps up a spiral staircase. It was a hike but the view was amazing from the top and well I can say that I did it. We also had some tasty breads and pretzels from a bakery and I found a cute Cuckoo clock that hopefully will be hung later today. Aachen was very pretty and we enjoyed the sites.

My overall experience was amazing. The people were very nice, the sites were amazing and I was in awe of the churches. They were so beautiful, huge and detailed. It really is hard to describe. Viewing the treasury of the churches were amazing too, all of them had relics from saints and holy people. One of the churches had a robe of Jesus (they only bring it out every 10 years for viewing) one church had a sponge that contained Jesus' blood, another church had a belt of Mary the mother of Jesus as well as a piece of the cross he died on and a part of the nail used to crucify him. It just really was breathtaking and amazing. I'm not ubber religious but being in these places really made me appreciate the blessing that have been bestowed upon me. I have a wonderful family and friend base and so many of the things I take for granted in life. I hope to try and appreciate all the things I've been blessed with each and every day.

All in all it was simply amazing and our hosts were so amazing and really showed us a good time. I couldn't have asked for anything better. But it is good to be Home Sweet Home.

Excitement

I soon will be headed for vacation. Germany here we come. I'm excited to see all the new sites, try all the new foods and enjoy time with my husband. The kids will be back home with family keeping an eye on them. This is the part of the trip that has me a little worried....I know they are in capable hands, it just being away from them for so long. I know they will be fine, I'll just miss them. There isn't too much planned so they don't have to carted back and forth to events so that's a plus.

Anyway, once we're back from Germany it's training once again for the 1/2 marathon in September. I'm really excited to get back into running...it will be a good stress reliever that's for sure.

Turing a year older.....

So today I turn a year older.....do I feel any different?? Nope, never really do. It's just another day, business as usual. Today I'm thinking back to my most memorable birthdays, lets see....One of my only happy childhood memories was going to Farrel's ice cream at the Mall. They'd give you your ice cream with a candle and you got your name called over the loud speaker and the Birthday Song played on the jukebox.

The next birthday I clearly recall was my 16th. I don't recall it for any good reason though. Growing up we didn't have lots of money so I wasn't expecting much of anything but you know what I got.....ZIP, NOTHING. My mom took me out for a free dinner at Denny's. A few days later I mentioned my disappointment and she retorted with "we went to dinner" Um it was FREE. She did buy me some clothing but I believe out of guilt.

My next birthday memory was my 19th. That was the night J proposed to me. It was such a lovely evening. We went to a fancy restaurant, he hired a violinist to play our song and then he proposed. He capped the evening off with a carriage ride downtown. It was great.

My only surprise party came when I was 21. A bunch of friends and family were rounded together for fun and dancing. My first official shot was a cement mixer bought by my brother. I still tease him on how horrible that was LOL.

My 30th birthday was another memorable one, only because that's the year I was a surrogate. I felt such gratitude and wonder as I was able to help bring my aunt and uncle so much happiness by being able to carry their son. I felt that my life had purpose and that often when you bring happiness to others you bring happiness to yourself.

Now at 36, I can honestly say that I enjoy each and every moment of life, I am happy with the many blessings that I have around me. I have an amazing family and such wonderful friends that I couldn't ask for more.

Feeling Young

So yesterday I was asked to sub in a kickball league. It was actually fun, I really didn't care if I played or not. I was placed at 2nd base (my old softball position, well one of them) and the first ball was a pop fly and it came my way and I made out #1. I felt a sigh of relief, I didn't want to blow it LOL.

I kicked a few times, well on one of my trips to 1st base I was running through the base and the second baseman went in my running path, I avoided hitting him but I did take a tumble. I have 2 skinned up elbows a skinned up knee, it's also bruised as well. I also tweaked my ankle, it's swollen and still today but it was all worth it! It was such a lovely day and to be outside having fun was just what I needed. I started my evening out yesterday with some jump roping and then for a quick 1 mile run.

All in all it was a good night full of healthy activity, I've missed that the past couple of weeks and it's amazing what it does for my attitude!

I want to send GOOD LUCK WISHES to my friends Joy and Joe who are running the Madison 1/2 marathon this weekend. Here's to the 2 of you!!! I hope you have a strong, injury free run. Most of all enjoy yourself and the scenery!!!

Sad

Yes I'm sad, I'm having trouble with accepting that my kids are getting older. "A" will be a 6th grader next year and she's turning into such a beautiful young lady, the trouble is I don't want her too. The older the kids get the less they need me and that's the way it is supposed to be, the trouble is I'm not ready for it yet. I can remember when they were born and taking care of them and enjoying each stage of their development and now another stage is here and I realized that the others seemed to go so fast. I know I can't turn back time and I have enjoyed every moment with my kids, even the hard days and not a day goes by that I don't tell them that I love them so what's the issue??? Who knows? What I do know is that I love my kids, I'm proud of them and they have such potential to do so much in life, I want them to seize each opportunity that life brings them. If I could shield them from pain and hurt I would but the truth is it's part of life and it makes us the people that we are.

On to something else....

I'm slightly frustrated with a few things. A few months ago I joined a wine club, only for 6 months to give it a try and I haven't gotten wine in awhile. So I look at my records and the last shipment was March. So I try the phone # and I get nothing but dead air. I attempt to get to their website and I get nothing but "page cannot be displayed". I do a google search for any of their in home sales people and nothing....I finally found something that says they went out of business on 3/23. Um, I paid for 6 months worth of wine and I only got 2 months!!! So I got the number to the lady that was the consultant at the party and left her a message to say WTF????? I want my wine!!!

Another cause for frustration; my niece is watching the kids while we go to Germany well I just read on her Facebook page that she will be having a cyst removed when she should be watching my kids. Um, it would be nice to know if I need to make alternate arrangements for them for that day or the days after. I'm not sure if this is something serious or something that will take 2 seconds...either way I think she should have told me. I have enough stress with getting things ready for this trip I don't need another log added to the fire.

Well, there you have it, my thoughts for today, exciting I know LOL

Tired

So I just spent a week on the beach, I am well rested but why am I so tired???? Work has been busy and then of course it's go go go at home. Keeps me out of trouble I suppose. We are going away for the weekend, just J and I with another couple so that will be nice. I feel as if we haven't had any time to connect lately. When we head off to Germany it will be go go go that we won't have much time to just relax and enjoy each other's company.

Speaking of Germany.....Everything is booked! We will be hitting Germany, Belgium (a room in the castle is booked!!!), the Netherlands, Luxembourg and London...That's right London. We're hopping a flight and spending the day there. I'm so excited for this trip and all the sites that we will see. It's going to be AMAZING.

Guess that's all for today, next week I'm getting back on the running wagon so ensure that I prepare well for September's 1/2 marathon.

Well Rested

So I just got back from my yearly beach trip and it was wonderful!! It was such a busy week at work and with personal activities so it was nice to get away for a week doing nothing but relaxing! It was sunny and warm and I spent my days at the beach or the pool. I did get some exercising in, walks on the beach, water aerobics and weights.

We did see Buddy the Cake Boss (TLC program) There was a new beach boardwalk opening and they had him make a cake and do a meet and greet. The cake was a huge Flip Flop and it was very tasty. I didn't wait in the line to formally greet him and get an autograph, We were by the tent he was at and I got some pictures. I did notice that he was very kind to the kids that were waiting in line, it's nice to see that some celebs don't get a big head over their fame and fortune and they are kind to the kids, hopefully teaching them a lesson to be kind to everyone, no matter who you are.

Back to reality though....work is busy, the house needs to be cleaned (none of that got taken care of while I was away). I will be getting in my exercise and then focus on all the house work. I will need to stay in good shape and prepare for the US Air Force 1/2 marathon in September!

Official Race Time

2:37:45
12:02 pace
1620th finisher out of 1945 1/2 marathon runners

Best time yet!!!

What An Amazing Run!!!

Friday we headed down to the hotel and we drove to the start of the race and looked for parking. We drove as much of the route as we could, part of the park was closed off so we couldn't drive it but we did more than half and that gave the ladies a sense of what the course was going to be like. We stopped to pick up some Subway for dinner and went back to the hotel room for dinner and a little TV. Storms were brewing and all I hoped for is they would pass before morning.

Sleeping was not as good as I would have like, but it's a hotel so what do you expect. 5:15 the alarm went off and we started to get ready. My pre-race jitters started some, probably more so because I had 2 friends that were joining me and I wanted their first 1/2 marathon experience to be a good one and that they wouldn't curse my name after LOL.

Found parking and made our way to the start line after checking my bag. Took some pictures and the nerves seemed to dissipate. I got a little emotional when the national anthem was played just because it's so exciting and I really wanted to be strong. Weather was great!! Sunny mid to upper 50's a little humid and not much wind at the start gate. And off we went. I kept to my 9 min running 1 min walking pace and did really well. Around 4 mile I recalled last year when I was getting side stitches, not this year, I was still strong. Having spectators line the course gives you added motivation as well. Before you knew it I was at mile 7, this is where I really got into trouble last year and the turn around point seemed like an eternity away, not this year that turn around point came quicker.

As I turned around I first say Penny (friend from work) going towards the turn around, I cheered her on and gave her a high five. Then I saw Andrea, she looked like she was strong and she had a smile on her face, gave her a high five and continued. Then I saw Ann, I knew she would be walking this 1/2 marathon and she was going strong and I cheered her on along with a high five. Coming back into the downtown area I had more walking breaks because of some hills, so I walked them and then continued on my run. Each hour I refueled with water, shot bloks and caffine beans. Each walking break I took I was sure to take in my water and also at each water station. Hydration was not something I did well last year so I wanted to ensure I didn't make that mistake again.

As I'm at about mile 11.5 my phone rings, it's my husband (who drove with Ann's family) asking where I was as he was hoping that he didn't miss my finish. All was good and he gave me a little encouragement. Made it to mile 12, full marathoners continued 1/2 marathoners turned around....I was feeling good. I saw my family towards the finish line and each of my kids ran the last .1 mile with me. What a great feeling. The clock said 2 hours 39 min. I'm still waiting for the official time to be posted. I was ecstatic, my first 1/2 in Napa I finished 2:38:52 and last year's time I didn't even really pay attention to, it was under 3 hours but not good at all.

I got my medal, water, banana, orange and Wheaties refuel cereal and off to watch for Andrea and Ann as they finished. I stretched as I waited for them, and took my shoes off to uncover some icky blisters. I cheered Penny through the finish line, cheered other runners as well and then Andrea came....we screamed for her and I ran in front of her to get some pictures as she was crossing the line. I was so excited for her and gave her a big hug. She was cramping so we got her some water and banana's to help. Then off to go watch for Ann. We cheered her on and she was emotional. Her family walked through the finish line with her. I met her with a huge hug.

This whole experience really meant a lot to me. It once again proves that I can do anything I put my mind too. If I train right, work hard and enjoy myself, I can do ANYTHING!!! I was happy that I inspired 2 other wonderful woman to run/walk their first 1/2 marathons and they enjoyed their experience. I was happy to have my family there and I can't wait for the next one in September!!!

Thank you to my readers, your encouragement and constant cheerleading has meant the world to me!

Big Day Tomorrow

So it's here....the 1/2 is tomorrow and I'm excited and I do have some nerves but that's a good thing. I'm very excited and I'm looking forward to a strong run. I'm hoping the weather holds out, looks like it will be a nice day, I just hope the rain stays away.

I think I'm a little nervous about my friends and if they'll enjoy their first 1/2 marathon experience. I hope so!

Anyway, I'll update how the run goes. Thanks to everyone for your encouragement and support, you all will be with me tomorrow!

9 miles

I ran 9 miles yesterday and it was wonderful!! I felt strong and made sure I was hydrated and refueled with my Clif's Shot Bloks. I didn't hit the pavement until 4:20 and ran 2 hours. I passed some resturaunts and I'm typically not a huge fan of Pizza Hut but it smelled GOOD!!! I was suprised at some of the hills that I was able to complete. I was thinking because this long wrong was happening at the end of the day I wouldn't be able to run some of the hills, and I was OK with that. So I was super amazed when I actually made it up them with ease. There were a couple times that my heart rate was a bit high so I took a walking break outside my normal run 9 minutes walk 1 minute pace. I brought the heart rate down and then back to running I went.

I think I surprised myself in a good way. Yesterday a friend of mine put together a day of prayer between friends. We all added items to the list and we would all pray for them. I did ask that she pray for me to have the strength, courage and the confidence in myself for my the 1/2 marathon. You all know that I occasionally struggle with confidence in myself at times so I just wanted to be sure I had all the support I could behind me and I really felt it.

I'm looking forward to a lazy weekend, it's rainy and icky and I'm happy to have my long run out of the way today!

Take two

That's because this is the second time I'm trying to post this LOL

I've taken a week off from running because of being sick last week. It was the right choice to not run but I miss it and I'm looking forward to a strong run after work. The run is coming up soon and I'm getting excited. The 2 ladies I'm running with are getting excited too and I hope they have a great experience as I did on my first 1/2 marathon. If they decide they never want to do another that is fine, I'm just happy that I've inspired them for this one and could be there to cheer them along.

Yesterday we were at a birthday party for my cousin's daughter. It was good to be around my family from Illinois for a second week in a row. It got me to thinking how I really want to be closer to them so I need to come up with ways/opportunities for us to get together, even if it's just for a cook out. It doesn't have to be anything fancy. My mom didn't have us spend a lot of time with family when we were younger, I now know it was so that no one would spill the beans about my brother's dad being alive (and well now we all know he's my dad too). There were so many lies that it really was the only way for her to protect her scheme. Sadly it was my brother and I that really got short changed and we weren't able to spend as much time with our aunts and uncles as I would have liked. Truthfully she hurt herself too but not having them around, now she's kind of all alone, even when she is with family she hangs with her grandkids...and they are getting too old to want to do that.

But on another note, I spent a little time with my Grandpa. He's 89 and just wonderful in my eyes. Last week A asked for an apple cake, one of her favorites especially when it's from great grandpa and he delivered. It's mighty tasty too. But I could see the years are catching up with him. He's slowing down some and I'm not sure how many more years he'll be with us. When I was younger and we'd visit my grandma and grandpa I loved it. Icecream, cookies, gum all the things we were never allowed at home. I would sit and paint my nails with my grandma and then grandpa would scratch my back for hours. It really was wonderful and my little escape from the realities of our home life which weren't great. I don't think my grandparents will ever know how important they were to me. I think my grandparents were amazing, of course my mom recounts how strict they were etc but I guess that's the difference between kids and grandkids....I can see it with how my mom treated me and how she treats her grandkids. I guess it's the normal cycle of life between kids and grandkids. :)

Feeling icky

That's right, I'm feeling very icky. On Tuesday I started not feeling well, somewhat of an upset stomach. I left work a little early and by the time I was done picking up the kids from school I was down for the count. I plopped myself on the couch with a pillow and blanket and didn't move the rest of the night. I took 2 Tylenol PM and I was out by 7:45 or so. Yesterday I WFH and tried to relax. Feeling a smidge better than the day before. I'm not sure if I have a stomach bug or if it's from eating too much Activia. If I recall about a year ago I was on the Activia challenge and after while my stomach was not right. I stopped taking it and I was fine. I vowed that I wouldn't eat it with regularity. J wanted some so I picked up a big multi pack at Sam's and I started eating it again....I'm wondering if the bacteria just doesn't like my system? Who knows. In today's lunch I have 2 pieces of bread and an apple. Breakfast was a chocolate soy milk/banana smoothly. I figured neither would bother my stomach and would give me some much needed energy.

No running for me this week so far, I need to let my body heal itself. I'm hoping I feel better by Saturday to get the big run in but I won't push myself....I need to get well first.

On the plus side, I lost some more weight. I'm now 6 1/2 lbs down from the beginning of the year. I believe that going off BC and taking vitamins may be helping!!! Imagine that! Although I'm happy that I may be on track it is kind of hard to swallow that J has lost 15lbs since the beginning of the year and me only 6.5...doesn't seem fair but perhaps I'm on my way!!

A good weekend

Saturday I run 6 miles outside, the longest run outside to date and it was wonderful. It was a new route which brought about new scenery that was very enjoyable. I had a good time, 6 miles in 1 hour 15 min or so. If I keep this pace up I may finish this 1/2 marathon in the same time as my first one in Napa. I felt strong and I enjoyed myself which is very important.

Yesterday I ran with my niece. We ran 2.5 miles in 20 min. She did finish before me but that was OK. I wanted to be sure I kept my my 1/2 marathon pace. I want to be sure I don't run these shorter runs any faster than what my long distance pace will be. Both days were so very nice. The sun felt good and each day had just enough of a breeze out there to keep me from overheating. I couldn't ask for more.

Vitamins seem to be getting absorbed into my system. I've felt great and strong. I guess the real test will be next week as that would be my "difficult" week while on BC so we'll see. But thus far I'm feeling very optimistic and hopeful that these vitamins will help even out my hormones and get me feeling like I should be.

This week is a busy one on tap, Block Watch meetings, Religion, Softball practice (for A) and then a Awards ceremony for A's basketball participation. It will be packed that's for sure but I'm sure it will be fine.

On a side note, I'm slightly disappointed that J won't be at the finish line after the 1/2. He will be Turkey hunting. It will be fine as I finished Napa without him there. A will be there as she will sleep over with her friend and her mom is running with me so her husband will bring them. I still need to find a place for E to go as we plan on spending the night at a hotel the day before the race so we don't have to get up as early. I know it will all work out, yet it's just one more thing I need to arrange. Could be worse I suppose.

The Weekend

The weekend started with talking myself into a run on Saturday morning. My hormones had the best of me and I really wanted to come up with every excuse NOT to go. My husband is the best and he helped motivate me. Just start running and then you'll feel good. So I started running, wearing my Napa technical tee to help give me inspiration and off I went. Selecting a new route to change things up. The run was going well, a bit cool but that helped me from over heating. Then came some sprinkles and then it got a little heavier. I was still running strong and it was a nice route but then finally I figured I should turn around. The shirt I had chosen was white and it was getting pretty wet so I figured I didn't want to give anyone a show so I called home to get picked up. I then went on to Map My Run and the distance I ran was 4.31 miles in 50 min. I was supposed to do 10 but that was my longest run so far this season outside and I was strong, I could have kept going. I paced myself really well and felt good. That helped change my mood for the day.

We also colored Easter eggs later in the night and that was fun. The kids are getting older and I was afraid that they wouldn't still enjoy the experience but they did and that made me happy. They still even posed for the yearly egg picture (the kids lay down and I put the eggs they colored around their heads and I snap the photo). Saturday ended on a high note that's for sure!

Sunday, Easter, spent with family what could be better??

On a side note....I did get my vitamins and today is day 4 of taking them. I'm feeling optimistic that they will help and give me relief. Time will tell I suppose, but I am looking forward to a week with some relaxation, good runs, and not being short tempered or irritable.

Warm weather helps warm the heart

This warmer weather has been wonderful. I ran my 3 miles outside yesterday. I was stronger than I thought I was going to be. I really wanted to talk myself out of not going for a run or making it shorter but somehow I didn't let that happen. I did walk some as running outside is much different than on the treadmill. I also am not 100% back to full energy strength with my hormones still being somewhat out of whack.

On my run I really paid attention to the quiet (when no cars were passing me by), the sound of my footsteps as they hit the pavement. The birds that seemed to be singing just to me. And when I was feeling like I was defeated a nice breeze was at my back giving me the extra burst that I needed to continue and not let myself fail. I've been praying more often, not just for myself but for those that I love and care about and I think if you listen and pay attention you get the response that you need. Yesterday it was the wind at my back. It was like a little extra push to keep going, telling me that I am strong enough and you can do it!

My vitamins are also on their way. I'm really hoping that these help with all the symptoms that I'm experiencing, tiredness, irritability, feeling bloated, restless nights sleep, not losing weight and everything else. Hopefully it will be just what I need so I can go back to my sunny disposition and enjoy life, family and friends.

Relief???

So my hormones are crazy irritating and I'm having a difficult time trying to adjust on some days. I was told about a vitamin that may help. I did some research and I ordered it yesterday. I'm hoping this helps me as I've been a tad miserable lately. Let me tell you it can't come soon enough!! I really hope that it provides some relief. The ingredients are all nature too so that is a really big plus. I'm hoping I can get off the BC that was supposed to help regulate my hormones but isn't. And I'm really hoping to have an enjoyable summer and not be on this roller coaster that I have been on.

I missed my long run this weekend as all I wanted to do was sleep. I did run yesterday and took a walk with the dogs and it felt good. Today is a rest day but I will get outside for a walk or get on the elliptical. I need to do something so I don't feel like a slug.


OK, enough complaining....I'll attempt to be a ray of sunshine on my next post.

Irritation

So sometimes family can be irritating. I ran this morning on the count of I'm getting my hair done this afternoon and I didn't want to get it all ruined with a run later. So I got up early and ran 2.5 miles. I was supposed to run 4 but I didn't have the time as I needed to get ready for work etc. I will take a walk with the dog later but my daughter chimes in and told me that I didn't finish the run because I was an epic failure....Nice coming from the girl I GAVE BIRTH TO.

Just as I was excited that I actually got up in the morning to run (I am so not a morning person) and that's the response I got. It hurt and I yelled at her but yet she really doesn't feel any remorse for her comment. I will talk with her later and be sure she understands how hurtful her words were. I'm sure she didn't mean it like I took it but the point is she should never say such things.

First run outside

The weather was beautiful yesterday and it was calling me to run outside. So I did. I ran my first 2 miles outside since I don't know when. It felt good to be out in the elements and feeling the wind in my hair and the warmth of the sun. It truly was a beautiful day and I'm happy I was able to enjoy a little bit of it.

I did notice that I was more tired and had to take walking breaks. I have slept for garbage this week so I know that had something to do with it. I also noticed my breathing wasn't regulated and that got me winded quicker as well. I know that will all come once I can hit pavement more. I make a vow now that I will get outside to run as much as I can. It is important for me to get my breathing down better and get that outdoor running pace together so I am ready and prepared for this 1/2 marathon.

My son got his braces yesterday and in honor of St. Patrick's Day he got them green. He has been such a trooper with the spacers, expander and now the braces. No complaints even when I had to take him back yesterday because one of the brackets came off his tooth. It wasn't even 3 hours that they were on and one came off FPS. So back we went so they could fix it.

Tonight we go to A's basketball party. The team is getting together for pizza so it should be fun. She really enjoyed playing and I hope to get her into some summer camps for additional skills and drills.

Work is OK...still learning and slowly growing more confident.

Germany is still in the works, I'm waiting for airfare to come down in price but we're excited and I've even gotten in a Rosetta Stone German lesson.

7 miles

I ran 7 miles on Saturday. It felt good! I was strong, had good form and it wasn't as dreadful as I thought it would have been. I attempted 3 miles yesterday but I could tell that my body needed some rest so I ran a mile and walked a mile. Today is a rest day and I can tell my body needs it. It feels good to relax some, perhaps I'll actually get some scrapbooking or cleaning done.

Work is OK, we're moving locations. I knew this was coming just not so fast. I'm helping with seating arrangements and everyone and their uncle has to put their 2 cents in. Just be happy you have a desk to sit at!!! Then there's Miss Nosey pants co-worker who needs to know everything....Um I don't need your help with this so step back.

Passports came on Saturday so that's exciting....Germany here we come. Now only if flight prices would come down I'd be a happy girl.

Guess that's all, not much to say for a Monday morning.

Confidence

So I've really been trying to work on my confidence and I guess I need more work. I am starting a new role here at work, a little more technical in nature. It's wonderful because I get to learn more but I have no technical background. But I feel given the right tools and training I can do this job. I'm not creating code nor do I need to translate it so I won't need those skills. But I got thrust into a project and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. The guy training me (who basically didn't finish the project and now it falls on my lap) has given me less than stellar training and tells me that he wants me to learn from my own mistakes. Well I have no problem with that but what I take issue with is he hasn't given me any of the tools to succeed and I'm not the personality that can continue to fail or make mistakes and think it's OK. Perhaps if I was given more to work with I'd be OK with it.

My co-worker seems to think that it is a self confidence issue on my part. Well perhaps it is but how can I feel confident about things I've never been given any training on....or the time of day from this particular co-worker. So now I'm left here feeling a little defeated, like I'm up a creek and haven't even been given the boat let alone the paddles. I know I'll be OK, but it is taking a hit to my confidence level and I don't like that.....I don't like to fail and I feel that if I do fail that it may mean my job.

On the running front, I've gotten in my 2 runs this week, tomorrow brings 7 miles. I'm excited to see if I can do it. I know that I can!! If I have to walk some so be it, the goal here is to get the 7 miles completed and feel good about it.

Long weekend....

So we jetted off to the Dells on Friday since the kids were off of school. We had a good time until about 3am ish on Saturday when E woke up saying he didn't feel good. 8:30ish he threw up....so the rest of the day was just relaxing in the hotel room and napping. By 3:30ish he was up to going to the dry park and played on the bumper cars and some laser tag but got upset when I wouldn't let him on the tea cups...I figured spinning was not a good idea for a kid that several hours earlier was trowing up....he wasn't happy. We headed to the arcade and there he had fun, things he could do without feeling sick. He did get sick around midnight again on Saturday but then he slept the rest of the night and yesterday was back to normal. I felt terrible, what kid wants to go away and then can't play with the other kids??? I felt terrible.

A sang at the local soccer game yesterday with her class. They sang the National Anthem and of course I got teary eyed....it's so wonderful to see your kids do things you never did and having fun doing it. The game was good too. I had never been to an indoor soccer game so it was an experience. A lot of action so it kept the kids engaged. They even want to go back.

I did get in a 3 mile run yesterday. It was nice and strong considering then I didn't feel good. I didn't get in my 6 miles that was scheduled for Saturday but I'll train hard this week and this week Saturday I'll be doing 7. I'm actually excited and worried at the same time. Last week's training was crummy but that's because I wasn't feeling the best but I really hate to miss the longer runs. I was planning on running at the hotel but with E being sick I was snuggling with him and even took a nap myself since I'd been up most the night. Saturday will be a challenge and I'm looking forward to it I just hope that last weeks lack of running doesn't make it too difficult! Hopefully it will be nice out and I can run outside for the first time of the season, that would be really great. Guess I should charge my ipod to get it ready.

I'm also a tad nervous....I asked all the parents to get back to me for the kids service project at religion and I've only heard from 2 of the parents (I'm not counting myself LOL)...I hope they are going to tell me this week what they are bringing otherwise I need to call the families to ask them to bring baked goods for the fund raiser....I really want this to be successful for the kids as they are putting their hearts in it. I guess I shouldn't worry about it, whatever they make will be good enough and I'm sure they'll be happy but as their teacher (and my son being one of the kids so as a mom) I want them to be successful so that they continue to want to help others and know that charity is a good thing. Although I am teaching them that any amount will help and is appreciated.

Feeling old

So I had my annual check up today, all is well and I'm better off than I was a year ago, still can't get my hormones fully in check but it's definitely a 90% improvement from last year. I mentioned the topic of weight, this go around of Weight Watchers is going well but the losses are fluctuating and taking longer than the first go around and she stated that as we get older it's normal. I really didn't think that I was old but now I think I might be LOL.

Running is going well, I believe there are 4 miles on tap for later today...I was hoping to get it done earlier so I could run errands and such later....but whatcha ganna do. Because we're going away for the weekend I'm hoping to get the 6 mile run in tomorrow, but I'm afraid it may be too much after today's run, so perhaps I'll do the 6 today...we'll see what I'm up for.

Just throwing a question out to all of you....my religion class was given $50 to donate (actually all religion classes were) and they chose the Humane Society. We are planning a bake sale after a religion class in a couple of weeks, any other ideas of easy fundraising that the kids could do? Nothing too complicated or recommended treats we could sell? They are really doing a good job and I'm proud of all the kids! It's fun to see their young hearts, so pure, full of joy and just as giving as can be, I'm glad I can be a part of their journey (Hopefully I'm not corrupting them too much LOL)

Why is it????

Why is it that people who kiss ass seem to be the ones that get ahead? So today I learned that one of my co-workers is becoming a team lead. After the merger of my company they combined my group with another and we report to the same manager. He is overwhelmed (I can tell) and team leaders is a good way to address having a larger team reporting to you. So we have a girl on our team that will now be a team lead for the other team. She told our manager that she had supervisory experience and experience in their line of work....Um REALLY??? Cuz you NEVER mentioned that EVER.

It's just frustrating is all....she's been kissing his ass since she found out he was our manager and it was only to get herself ahead. She's one that doesn't come in on time (here it is almost 9:30 and she's supposed to be here at 9 and there's no sign of her yet), she talks on the phone all day, in a foriegn language to boot, takes walks, leaves early, goes for seated chair massages and never makes up the time. Now I understand there are some days you have to leave early for an appt and it's hard for you to make up the time but one week you can work overtime and it all evens out in the end, but that has NEVER been her way. She thinks she's entitled to everything.

Anyway, it's just frustrating, not saying that I would want the job, although I do have team leader and supervisory experience so at least it would be a better fit than her.

Training is going well. Sunday I did 5 miles, my longest run by far and it felt good and strong and I can see that the training is going well and helping me become stronger. I already feel that I'm at a better place with this training than I was last year so I'm really proud and it gives me motivation to continue to work hard. If I put my mind to it, I will succeed!!!

Week 3

Week 3 of training started out strong. I had a 2.5 mile run yesterday and I felt strong and confident. I didn't wear my new shoes, I'll take those back and continue my hunt for new running shoes. Although yesterday's run was fine. My foot didn't feel like it was falling asleep so I'm wondering if it's my form and not the shoe. We'll see. This weekend I have a 5 mile run slated. I'll be doing that on Sunday as Saturday I have guests coming over so I'll switch my Saturday and Sunday runs so we'll see how I do then.

As you know I'll be headed to Germany this year and I'm very excited. My friend I'm staying with sent me a link to stay in a castle. That's right, we will spend a night in a castle. I'm so excited, who ever has stayed in a castle??? Not me that's for sure. I can pretend to be a princess LOL. We'll be staying at Kasteel Ten Berghe (http://www.kasteeltenberghe.be). Looks like it will be an experience of a lifetime.

Struggles pass...

So On Saturday I had a 4 mile run on the books and it went GREAT!!! I ran first thing in the morning and didn't eat anything but did have a Clif's Shot Blok before the work out and that gave me some energy that I was lacking. I took another one at the hour mark of running along with some water and that was my only break during the run. It really felt good and it was a strong run.

I have been getting the feeling that my left foot is falling asleep while running so I figured my shoes have outlived themselves although they look great. So I made a trip to REI on Saturday and picked out some shoes. I tried them out yesterday during my 2.5 mile run and well...they have to go back. I had the start of a blister forming on one of my toes and they just weren't very comfortable. I currently have the Ascic's 1140 and these were Ascic's 1150 (or something like that) so I'll see if they actually have the ones that I currently am using for running, otherwise I'll try a different pair to see if that helps.

So there was a lesson learned, I didn't get down that I couldn't complete the 3 mile run and I took my rest day on Friday as I should instead of trying to make up the time and Saturday's run was strong. So was Sunday's....so I was right in listening to my body and taking a break when needed and not trying to push myself. Just do what I can and know that if I'm not having a strong run that day, it's OK.....it will pass. Just listen to my body and avoid injury, that's what's important.

Struggle

Yesterday I was scheduled to run 3 miles, I did a mile and it took everything that I had. I don't know why I struggled with the run, but physically I just couldn't do it. I did what I could and running a mile is better than not doing anything at all. What I need to do is learn to not be so upset by this. It is more important to listen to my body and not over do it and risk injury.

I just don't don't know why I feel so badly about it. I feel like I've been defeated and in reality I haven't, I've won because I pushed through and did something.

Today is a rest day, I was thinking I would make up the 2 miles from yesterday but I think I need this day of rest so I can have strong weekend runs. If possible I'll make up the 2 miles then but I'm not going to fret and I'm going to do my best to not be disappointed in myself.

Not too much else going on which is good. I've been checking almost daily for flights to Germany and the price hasn't come down at all. I think I will most likely just book the airfare in the up coming weeks so I can just get that out of the way and I don't have to stress about it. I will be working the Rosetta Stone German this weekend to get a jump on the language. I'm excited and can't wait, it's going to be an amazing trip and I'm excited because this will be the first time that J and I have gone some where super nice since our honeymoon 13 years ago. We've been to Vegas and family trips but not as extravagant as this. It should be exciting.

Week 1 Done

Week 1 of training is in the books and because I've been such a dork lately, most of my runs were "week 2" schedule. That's OK, I'm glad I got the runs in and it's better to do more than less right??

Tonight I've got 2.5 miles on tap, I'm not feeling 100% but I'll get it in, regardless if it's walking or running. Something is better than nothing and I'm determined to train the right way this go around.

I continue to feel strong on my runs. Saturday I was to do 4 miles...I did but some of it was walking briskly. Actually most of it was but Sunday's 2.5 mile run was strong. Weird how you can feel each day. I'm thinking Saturday could have been because I didn't have proper fuel before the run. I have a hard time eating anything before I run. If I run too soon after I eat, I get a side stitch, so I ate only a Nature Valley Bar. I'm guessing that wasn't enough. I need to get to REI to pick up some Luna Bars. I recall last year I would eat those before a run and those worked nicely. Perhaps tomorrow I can get there, I don't have to teach because of Ash Wednesday, we've go the day off.

As for Lent, this year my class as stated I should give up candy. Well wouldn't you know it, a co-worker filled my candy dish today LOL. I guess I'll have temptation right in front of me so we'll see how strong I can be. I was thinking of ditching the coffee as well. I usually don't drink it to "get me going" it's more of a hot drink to warm me when I first get into the office. But I mix my coffee with cappuccino so that's not the healthiest. So perhaps I'll add that to my list.

Not too much else going on...which is good.

Training Begins

Yesterday was my first official run of training for the 1/2 marathon in May. It felt good even though I was interrupted with a couple of phone calls. The run felt strong and good and I was happy to have gotten it in. I actually worked out with J and that's nice. Because of the weather my friend Andrea didn't come over to work out. And that definitely was OK by me as I didn't want her to drive in that weather, it was one of those days to just stay home if you didn't need to go out. Today is listed as a rest day, I typically take rest days on Wednesdays because of religion classes, I don't have to try and rush or start my work out at 8pm.

So work....I know that a guy is leaving. I'm the only one that knows at this point as I could read it on his face. Now I'm very happy for him, but selfishly I wonder where this leaves me. He was always my "go to" guy and all the technical stuff I know is because of him. So this really has me thinking of what it is I want to do with my career. I told J about this guy leaving and how he is getting a 35% increase in pay, he deserves it that's for sure and my company has always been know to under pay some of its employee's (I feel I am one of them). J's solution is telling me I should take a technical class, the trouble is, I don't know if that's what I want to do. I often thought that working for a charity might be nice, lately thinking about the Make a Wish Foundation or MACC Fund. But I'm not exactly sure what they all do and if it would be something that would interest me. J also mentions Customer Service as that is some of my background, but what kind of Customer Service. I have a flexible schedule and I don't want to be at the beckon call of a client like in my old group. I thought of perhaps a Physical Therapist but I"m not sure about that either....I wish I know what I wanted to be when I grow up LOL.

Am I the only one that faces this issue? Is everyone happy in their jobs or know what they are good at?? I struggle to answer these questions as I was never pointed in any directions or motivated to try new things. I believe I need a change in my professional career but I'm just not sure how to go about doing that. I think part of my hesitation is that I do lack the confidence in my own skills. The gentleman that's leaving my group (he's also a friend) says that he wishes that I could see in myself what I'm worth and that I know more than I give myself credit for. Those are wonderful complements, I just wish that I could see that in myself....I'm not sure how to change my outlook. I'm hoping that taking control of my exercising and weight will help give me the confidence that I can make changes in other aspects of my life. As with my work outs, sometimes they are strong, some times they aren't but the point is, that I'm out there doing it...trying and NOT giving up.

Training starts this week

And I'm so excited!!! Tuesday is the first official 2 mile run. I've been getting stronger and I've seen my runs improve and 2 miles is easy for me (when I'm not super exhausted). Yesterday I worked out for 90 min while watching UP with the kids. It felt good and the few extra Super Bowl snacks I made and ate I didn't feel guilty eating :)

Not too much else going on. I say my mom this weekend at A's basketball game and I didn't talk to her much. She did mention how I didn't call to see if she was OK after her fall in our drive way. I just let the comment pass figuring it would be better to NOT respond. I'm tired of her games and I'm just saddened that I have such feelings. I though mom's were supposed to be like best friends. My SIL has a good relationship with her mom and truth be told I'm jealous. I always wanted to be close to my mom and when I was younger I was, I didn't share everything with her but I think I turned a blind eye to the way I was treated, compensating for not having a dad in my life. Now that I have my own family my eyes have been opened. Opened because while she was at Happy Hour with friends I was locked in my bedroom, kids calling for me to play with them but I couldn't. I kept quiet in my room so they wouldn't know. All of those types of things are creeping back up to my memory and it makes me angry. I just need to move past all of this as it is wasted energy, I'm just not sure how.

Anyway, brace yourselves for more snow!!

Good Workouts

The past 2 days I had good workouts. Last week I was tired and didn't work out as much as I had been doing so for me to be back on track this week is a good feeling. It wasn't a struggle, I didn't stop, I didn't make excuses I just went back to working out and I was just as strong with a couple days off. I think it's key that I listen to my body and do what I can. Something is better than nothing.

Last night I also watched some of the Biggest Loser. I've never watched the show before. J and I couldn't turn it off, we stayed glued to the TV to see their workouts, weigh In's and challenges. It was pretty interesting and motivating. Here are people that are very over weight and they want to live so they are making changes that are needed to make that happen. Even the guy that got booted off last night, they showed him now and he's still working with the tools he learned while he was on the show and he lost over 100lbs and he's still losing. It's great to see and gives me the inspiration that I can do this too. I don't have the amount of weight that those individuals need to lose but it shows that with hard work and making better food choices that I will become a healthier me and show my kids these life lessons as well.

I recall a few years ago after I did Weight Watchers the first time around I inspired someone to join and get healthy, well that's my goal...to inspire people. Over the years I've realized that I'm happiest when I feel I'm helping others. It doesn't matter if it's weight loss, through charity, through friendship, through helping the Girl Scout troop, it's about people and helping others....by helping others perhaps it will inspire them to do the same, kind of a Pay it Forward type of mentality. Perhaps that's corney but it is me we're talking about :)

Good for the Soul

Friends and family are good for my soul. This weekend I had plans, first dinner with Joy and Joe on Friday at Tandoor (oh so yummy). I enjoy their company and the similarities we seem to share in our families, it helps me know that I am not the only one that faces issues with their parents. Time with them also helps me strive for a better workout. Both Joe and Joy are dedicated to working out and staying fit, this helps push me some too, giving me the confidence to strive for more.

Then Saturday I was hanging with my HCW's....all my weight watchers friends from around the state. These ladies have been so instrumental in my weight loss journey. They are all wonderful and have so many qualities that help me in my life. Having their support and being there for them is what the bond of friendship is all about.

I got home on Sunday and had to race to work concessions at Church for the Basketball tournament. I didn't get to see much of A's game but I believe they scored the most points they have all season. It will be a little more of a difficult day for her teammates as the 2 girls teams from St. Mary's played each other and I guess the other team that won has bigger heads on the teams and may boast or brag at school today. A doesn't have to worry about that drama which is good.

As a family we had dinner together and enjoyed each other's company. I gave my husband a little extra hug last night and snuggled a little more with the kids while tucking them into bed. I understand that it is family and friends that keep me whole and everyone that I have in my life is so important, more than words could ever express.

Thank you to all of my family and friends for being an important part of my life!

Finally...

A's basketball team won their first game last night! They did great and really pulled it out. They lead for the whole game and at the end the other team tied it up but the girls got 1 more score under 2 minutes to go and then their defense held up and didn't let the other girls score. What a great moment for all the girls, they were jumping up and down and really excited and they deserved it. All their efforts and the efforts of the coaches are paying off so that's just wonderful to see. After the game the kids all went to Pop's (a custard stand), I had a friend coming over to work out during American Idol so I had J take her.

Another first, E came home yesterday with a form for a soccer camp that's coming up and he wants to join. He NEVER wants to join anything so I immediately said YES. It's $50 for 6 weeks but if he wants to then I don't want to deny him, especially since he showed the interest. And as luck would have it, I don't know where in the world I put the darn form. I can't find it ANYWHERE. So I had J write a note to the teacher asking to send home another one.

On the workout front, yesterday's workout was good, not great. I was tired (it was after 7 when we started) but I pulled through. I ate a piece of wheat bread with some peanut butter about 20 min before the work out and during my run I got a side stitch so I didn't run as much as I wanted to but it was still good. I then went to the elliptical (we switch so we do 30 min on the TM and 30 on the elliptical) and I put the resistance up higher and kept it at a certain speed and managed so all in all it was good. I'm happy to say that the scale also went in a downward motion again this week so that's just wonderful. My efforts are paying off and I feel as if I'm taking control once again! It feels great.