Well, Reno took a turn for the worse and I thought he was improving but he wasn't. He had a bad night on Sunday, he had chills, trouble walking and looked miserable. We decided yesterday to make the decision to put him down to end his suffering. We said our good byes last night and then Jim took him in. Its been an emotional roller coaster and I miss him but I know he's not suffering.
Thank you everyone for your words of kindness and support, it means more than I can express in words.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Reno...
Good news on the dog front, Reno is doing better. Thank God because I had said my good byes and shed my tears for MY first dog. Friday night I talked to the vet and he didn't know, based on the symptoms I described, what the issue was, his heart, a virus, he just didn't know. He said the older a dog gets the harder it is for them to recover and he knew that we wouldn't want him to suffer. After Jim came home from running errands I told him what the vet said, we saw Reno laying on the floor and as I stated "I wish I knew what to do", Jim replied with "You know what we need to do". And he was right, I didn't want him to suffer, he deserves more than that. I cried, snuggled with my pup and thought that Saturday morning we'd be taking him in.
Reno had other plans I guess because he ate some steak I gave him. This was the first bit of food he had since Wednesday (although he threw that all up). Since he ate 1 piece I gave him another and then another. He also ate 1/2 of a bun I had cooked. We were encouraged by him finally eating but again, were weary. Saturday morning he ate some of a bagel, eggs, sausage, ham and cheese. Jim called from work asking if he needed to come home to take him in and I said "no, he ate some food". After work he came home with a can of dog food and he enjoyed that. He actually drank out of his water dish (he had been eating snow and licking the ice in the back yard). He seemed to improve throughout the day.
Today (Sunday) he ate more of the canned dog food, he really gobbled it up and he ate some of his normal dry food. He even barked at some passer byers taking a walk. I've been able to get 2 days of his meds in (1 for his heart, the other for his back leg). I hope that he continues to improve because he's not 100% but at least with him eating I'm assured that he's not starving to death. This really puts my heart at ease, at least for a short while as he is 12 1/2 so I know his time may be coming soon. I'm just glad it wasn't this weekend.
Now about me, I started my BC pill today, its weird saying that, I don't have a uterus, Jim is fixed yet I have to be on BC. I'm hoping that it will help aide in my moods and the menopausal symptoms I've been experiencing. I'm headed for an ultra sound tomorrow which is a good thing because yesterday I had some pain. I'm hoping by them doing this ultra sound they are able to see something with the ovaries that might explain the pains. My assumption is its ovulation pain but I don't know if that can be seen on an ultra sound or not.
I did get in 8 miles on the elliptical today, which felt good. Tomorrow Jim will be moving my TM over as I really need to be getting these long distances on the TM until I can hit pavement. I'm a wimp, I'll admit it, I don't like the cold or wind and can't bring myself to run outside just yet.
OK, I've blabbed enough for one day, I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet as the kids are at their friends playing. We're also trying a new recipe today, Savory chicken crescent squares, we'll see how that turns out.
Thanks for your support everyone, it really means a lot.
Reno had other plans I guess because he ate some steak I gave him. This was the first bit of food he had since Wednesday (although he threw that all up). Since he ate 1 piece I gave him another and then another. He also ate 1/2 of a bun I had cooked. We were encouraged by him finally eating but again, were weary. Saturday morning he ate some of a bagel, eggs, sausage, ham and cheese. Jim called from work asking if he needed to come home to take him in and I said "no, he ate some food". After work he came home with a can of dog food and he enjoyed that. He actually drank out of his water dish (he had been eating snow and licking the ice in the back yard). He seemed to improve throughout the day.
Today (Sunday) he ate more of the canned dog food, he really gobbled it up and he ate some of his normal dry food. He even barked at some passer byers taking a walk. I've been able to get 2 days of his meds in (1 for his heart, the other for his back leg). I hope that he continues to improve because he's not 100% but at least with him eating I'm assured that he's not starving to death. This really puts my heart at ease, at least for a short while as he is 12 1/2 so I know his time may be coming soon. I'm just glad it wasn't this weekend.
Now about me, I started my BC pill today, its weird saying that, I don't have a uterus, Jim is fixed yet I have to be on BC. I'm hoping that it will help aide in my moods and the menopausal symptoms I've been experiencing. I'm headed for an ultra sound tomorrow which is a good thing because yesterday I had some pain. I'm hoping by them doing this ultra sound they are able to see something with the ovaries that might explain the pains. My assumption is its ovulation pain but I don't know if that can be seen on an ultra sound or not.
I did get in 8 miles on the elliptical today, which felt good. Tomorrow Jim will be moving my TM over as I really need to be getting these long distances on the TM until I can hit pavement. I'm a wimp, I'll admit it, I don't like the cold or wind and can't bring myself to run outside just yet.
OK, I've blabbed enough for one day, I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet as the kids are at their friends playing. We're also trying a new recipe today, Savory chicken crescent squares, we'll see how that turns out.
Thanks for your support everyone, it really means a lot.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Rough Week
So this week I had a hard time hitting my mileage on the running front. Perhaps its because I'm headed into my "tired" phase. I just made my 4 miles Tuesday and yesterdays 4 miles turned into 2. I know 2 is better than nothing and I did have volleyball last night as well so I'm getting in much needed activity. I just wish I knew what the issue was. I'm sure its just a bad week and next week I'll have lots of energy and bounce right back.
As for why else its a rough week, well I got home Wednesday to 11 area's where my dog Reno threw up. He just looked aweful and so sad. Well he seems to be on a decline. He has a heart problem and he's old. He's a big dog and he's 12 1/2 so he's up there in age for a bigger dog. We took pictures with him last night and he wasn't looking good and his heart rate was off. This morning he ate 2 peices of bread and just a lick or two of water. I'm going to try and give him is heart meds because he's been "coughing" (which is due to his heart, it causes fluid on his lungs). Its just rough because we don't know what to do. Is it time to put him down? Is it just a doggy flu and he'll recover? Its hard on the kids too. E spent a good portion of the evening crying and its hard to not be able to console your kids.
We don't know anything for sure so perhaps Reno will bounce back, we'll just wait and see. Now I'm off to go watch A in her Dance Assembly at school. She worked on a routine with a few other kids from her class and their ganna dance it up.
As for why else its a rough week, well I got home Wednesday to 11 area's where my dog Reno threw up. He just looked aweful and so sad. Well he seems to be on a decline. He has a heart problem and he's old. He's a big dog and he's 12 1/2 so he's up there in age for a bigger dog. We took pictures with him last night and he wasn't looking good and his heart rate was off. This morning he ate 2 peices of bread and just a lick or two of water. I'm going to try and give him is heart meds because he's been "coughing" (which is due to his heart, it causes fluid on his lungs). Its just rough because we don't know what to do. Is it time to put him down? Is it just a doggy flu and he'll recover? Its hard on the kids too. E spent a good portion of the evening crying and its hard to not be able to console your kids.
We don't know anything for sure so perhaps Reno will bounce back, we'll just wait and see. Now I'm off to go watch A in her Dance Assembly at school. She worked on a routine with a few other kids from her class and their ganna dance it up.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Test results are in
And they found nada, nothing, zilch. So next course of action, I will start on Yaz BC on Sunday. If that doesn't help with the symptoms or pain then it looks like laproscopic surgery. I also have an ultra sound scheduled for Monday to check that all is well with my ovaries. Hopefully the BC will help and get my moods back to normal and help with the pain that I'm having.
Today was 4 miles and I was on the TM. Its been awhile since I've hit the TM so it was good. It took longer than it has been when I'm on the elliptical but I was also a little sore from yesterday's Cardio Blast class so that might have something to do with it. My legs were just plain tired.
Nothing else is going on which is nice. I plan on watching some American Idol tonight with a glass of wine in hand as the next couple of nights I've got something going on.
Today was 4 miles and I was on the TM. Its been awhile since I've hit the TM so it was good. It took longer than it has been when I'm on the elliptical but I was also a little sore from yesterday's Cardio Blast class so that might have something to do with it. My legs were just plain tired.
Nothing else is going on which is nice. I plan on watching some American Idol tonight with a glass of wine in hand as the next couple of nights I've got something going on.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Beyond Angry
First let me update everyone on the doctor....She was great, listened to everything, took notes and confirmed that I'm not crazy (good to know). They took a bunch of blood to test my thyroid, hormones, iron levels and cholesterol. So now I wait to see if any of that provides any answers.
Ok, now why am I mad??? I get to work this morning and before my PC boots up my phone is ringing, its my brother to tell me my mom sent an email asking for money. I kid you not the email starts out by "Which one of you is going to loan me money". She's got car issues and wants can't afford to pay for them and this is my problem how?? I know that may sound insensitive but I've borrowed money to my mom in the past but I've never seen a penny back in return. I mean for Pete's Sake the woman is 60 some years old get a grip for crying out loud. She's always had someone bail her out and I'm sick of her asking and not appreciating the assistance I've given her in the past. I have my own family, my own set of bills and responsibilities I can't take care of her either. Its just frustrating and I've gotten sick today because of it. My brother is angry just like I am but he stepped in and under protest is going to help her. I personally and upset that he gave in but it is his choice and I understand feeling like your between a rock and a hard place. Just frustrating is all.
I'm a little better now having voiced my anger. Thanks for listening to me vent. Now I'm going out with a girlfriend to drink some wine so that should help me too!!
Ok, now why am I mad??? I get to work this morning and before my PC boots up my phone is ringing, its my brother to tell me my mom sent an email asking for money. I kid you not the email starts out by "Which one of you is going to loan me money". She's got car issues and wants can't afford to pay for them and this is my problem how?? I know that may sound insensitive but I've borrowed money to my mom in the past but I've never seen a penny back in return. I mean for Pete's Sake the woman is 60 some years old get a grip for crying out loud. She's always had someone bail her out and I'm sick of her asking and not appreciating the assistance I've given her in the past. I have my own family, my own set of bills and responsibilities I can't take care of her either. Its just frustrating and I've gotten sick today because of it. My brother is angry just like I am but he stepped in and under protest is going to help her. I personally and upset that he gave in but it is his choice and I understand feeling like your between a rock and a hard place. Just frustrating is all.
I'm a little better now having voiced my anger. Thanks for listening to me vent. Now I'm going out with a girlfriend to drink some wine so that should help me too!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Doctor Day
First update, the butt is not as sore, the calves still are from Monday's workout. Tuesday I did manage my 4 miles, I'm not sure how I pulled that off but I did. I took a much needed DOR yesterday and that felt great.
Today is when I go to the doctor and hopefully I will have a game plan to attack my hormone issues I've been experiencing. I'm not too hopeful though, not sure why. I just have a bad feeling I'm going to be told its all in my head. Perhaps that's just the unknown with a new doctor. I'll try and be positive and if this doctor doesn't take me seriously then I'll find another who will. Simple as that.
On another note, this past weekend I watched Mama Mia for the first time. I realized that's my life! I kid you not some of the lines in the movie (I'm sure they were in the play too but I haven't seen that production) are exactly what I was feeling when I got married. I even got a hold of my dad via letters before I got married because I so wanted my dad to walk me down the isle. I was happy that I had my mom and brother by my side but there was just something missing. I have always been a big fan of Father of the Bride but I always cry at that movie because I didn't have a dad with me to walk me down the isle or freak out over wedding bills. Instead I had a mom that called me "crabby" on my wedding day, but I digress.....As I watched Mama Mia I felt some of the same things as she did about her dad. I watched it again on Sunday with my mom and I can only imagine what was going on in her head. Remember now that she slept around because the guy I thought was my dad wasn't and now its someone else (Jerry Springer material I know). I can only imagine what she was thinking, but I hope that she is disappointed in herself for all the trouble she's caused to others but I doubt it.
Now I'm not complaining that I didn't have a daddy and woe is me, because now I have 2 dads that I talk to. I have a heap full of brothers and sisters and cousins now that I never knew and now they are apart of my family and they've accepted me and mine as if we were there all the time. How special is that. What a wonderful life I do have and I'm greatful, but I could sure use some of those "Royalties" from the play/movie since they based it on me without me knowing. LOL
Today is when I go to the doctor and hopefully I will have a game plan to attack my hormone issues I've been experiencing. I'm not too hopeful though, not sure why. I just have a bad feeling I'm going to be told its all in my head. Perhaps that's just the unknown with a new doctor. I'll try and be positive and if this doctor doesn't take me seriously then I'll find another who will. Simple as that.
On another note, this past weekend I watched Mama Mia for the first time. I realized that's my life! I kid you not some of the lines in the movie (I'm sure they were in the play too but I haven't seen that production) are exactly what I was feeling when I got married. I even got a hold of my dad via letters before I got married because I so wanted my dad to walk me down the isle. I was happy that I had my mom and brother by my side but there was just something missing. I have always been a big fan of Father of the Bride but I always cry at that movie because I didn't have a dad with me to walk me down the isle or freak out over wedding bills. Instead I had a mom that called me "crabby" on my wedding day, but I digress.....As I watched Mama Mia I felt some of the same things as she did about her dad. I watched it again on Sunday with my mom and I can only imagine what was going on in her head. Remember now that she slept around because the guy I thought was my dad wasn't and now its someone else (Jerry Springer material I know). I can only imagine what she was thinking, but I hope that she is disappointed in herself for all the trouble she's caused to others but I doubt it.
Now I'm not complaining that I didn't have a daddy and woe is me, because now I have 2 dads that I talk to. I have a heap full of brothers and sisters and cousins now that I never knew and now they are apart of my family and they've accepted me and mine as if we were there all the time. How special is that. What a wonderful life I do have and I'm greatful, but I could sure use some of those "Royalties" from the play/movie since they based it on me without me knowing. LOL
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Sore
So yesterday was supposed to be my Cardio Kickboxing class but we had a sub and well she bounced around a lot. I got in a good work out and man am I sore today. You know what's sore????.......wait for it........ my butt. Now I just thought my butt was a pile of flabby jello but some where in the flab must be some muscles because man, their sore. I feel good, if it weren't for my hormonal exhaustion setting in. I have a 4 mile run scheduled for later, we'll see how that goes. I'm not too sure if I should let my muscles rest after yesterday's workout or if I should go ahead and run. I think I've decided I'd give it a whirl and see what happens.
Now on another front that has been aggrevating me.....I need new clothes, I'm tired of wearing all the same things and really would like something new. Couple of things are standing in my way. 1) my fashion tardedness. I'm not a good judge of picking out my own clothes, I've never been girly that way and just don't know what looks good or how to match things together. Occasionally I get it right but that's rare. 2) money, I don't have a lot to spend. My husband says, just go out and get what you need but my logical side kicks in and thinks I shouldn't really spend money that we are trying to put to our credit cards to get those paid off. Why is it that I have this issue?? Just a couple of items is all I would need to make me happy yet I don't think I'm worth it. Now if it were the kids sure not a problem....but when it comes to me, I'm hesitant. Why is this? Is it a mom thing? Is it the Catholic guilt thing? Is it being smart? Who knows??
Now on another front that has been aggrevating me.....I need new clothes, I'm tired of wearing all the same things and really would like something new. Couple of things are standing in my way. 1) my fashion tardedness. I'm not a good judge of picking out my own clothes, I've never been girly that way and just don't know what looks good or how to match things together. Occasionally I get it right but that's rare. 2) money, I don't have a lot to spend. My husband says, just go out and get what you need but my logical side kicks in and thinks I shouldn't really spend money that we are trying to put to our credit cards to get those paid off. Why is it that I have this issue?? Just a couple of items is all I would need to make me happy yet I don't think I'm worth it. Now if it were the kids sure not a problem....but when it comes to me, I'm hesitant. Why is this? Is it a mom thing? Is it the Catholic guilt thing? Is it being smart? Who knows??
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