Yesterday I was scheduled to run 3 miles, I did a mile and it took everything that I had. I don't know why I struggled with the run, but physically I just couldn't do it. I did what I could and running a mile is better than not doing anything at all. What I need to do is learn to not be so upset by this. It is more important to listen to my body and not over do it and risk injury.
I just don't don't know why I feel so badly about it. I feel like I've been defeated and in reality I haven't, I've won because I pushed through and did something.
Today is a rest day, I was thinking I would make up the 2 miles from yesterday but I think I need this day of rest so I can have strong weekend runs. If possible I'll make up the 2 miles then but I'm not going to fret and I'm going to do my best to not be disappointed in myself.
Not too much else going on which is good. I've been checking almost daily for flights to Germany and the price hasn't come down at all. I think I will most likely just book the airfare in the up coming weeks so I can just get that out of the way and I don't have to stress about it. I will be working the Rosetta Stone German this weekend to get a jump on the language. I'm excited and can't wait, it's going to be an amazing trip and I'm excited because this will be the first time that J and I have gone some where super nice since our honeymoon 13 years ago. We've been to Vegas and family trips but not as extravagant as this. It should be exciting.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Week 1 Done
Week 1 of training is in the books and because I've been such a dork lately, most of my runs were "week 2" schedule. That's OK, I'm glad I got the runs in and it's better to do more than less right??
Tonight I've got 2.5 miles on tap, I'm not feeling 100% but I'll get it in, regardless if it's walking or running. Something is better than nothing and I'm determined to train the right way this go around.
I continue to feel strong on my runs. Saturday I was to do 4 miles...I did but some of it was walking briskly. Actually most of it was but Sunday's 2.5 mile run was strong. Weird how you can feel each day. I'm thinking Saturday could have been because I didn't have proper fuel before the run. I have a hard time eating anything before I run. If I run too soon after I eat, I get a side stitch, so I ate only a Nature Valley Bar. I'm guessing that wasn't enough. I need to get to REI to pick up some Luna Bars. I recall last year I would eat those before a run and those worked nicely. Perhaps tomorrow I can get there, I don't have to teach because of Ash Wednesday, we've go the day off.
As for Lent, this year my class as stated I should give up candy. Well wouldn't you know it, a co-worker filled my candy dish today LOL. I guess I'll have temptation right in front of me so we'll see how strong I can be. I was thinking of ditching the coffee as well. I usually don't drink it to "get me going" it's more of a hot drink to warm me when I first get into the office. But I mix my coffee with cappuccino so that's not the healthiest. So perhaps I'll add that to my list.
Not too much else going on...which is good.
Tonight I've got 2.5 miles on tap, I'm not feeling 100% but I'll get it in, regardless if it's walking or running. Something is better than nothing and I'm determined to train the right way this go around.
I continue to feel strong on my runs. Saturday I was to do 4 miles...I did but some of it was walking briskly. Actually most of it was but Sunday's 2.5 mile run was strong. Weird how you can feel each day. I'm thinking Saturday could have been because I didn't have proper fuel before the run. I have a hard time eating anything before I run. If I run too soon after I eat, I get a side stitch, so I ate only a Nature Valley Bar. I'm guessing that wasn't enough. I need to get to REI to pick up some Luna Bars. I recall last year I would eat those before a run and those worked nicely. Perhaps tomorrow I can get there, I don't have to teach because of Ash Wednesday, we've go the day off.
As for Lent, this year my class as stated I should give up candy. Well wouldn't you know it, a co-worker filled my candy dish today LOL. I guess I'll have temptation right in front of me so we'll see how strong I can be. I was thinking of ditching the coffee as well. I usually don't drink it to "get me going" it's more of a hot drink to warm me when I first get into the office. But I mix my coffee with cappuccino so that's not the healthiest. So perhaps I'll add that to my list.
Not too much else going on...which is good.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Training Begins
Yesterday was my first official run of training for the 1/2 marathon in May. It felt good even though I was interrupted with a couple of phone calls. The run felt strong and good and I was happy to have gotten it in. I actually worked out with J and that's nice. Because of the weather my friend Andrea didn't come over to work out. And that definitely was OK by me as I didn't want her to drive in that weather, it was one of those days to just stay home if you didn't need to go out. Today is listed as a rest day, I typically take rest days on Wednesdays because of religion classes, I don't have to try and rush or start my work out at 8pm.
So work....I know that a guy is leaving. I'm the only one that knows at this point as I could read it on his face. Now I'm very happy for him, but selfishly I wonder where this leaves me. He was always my "go to" guy and all the technical stuff I know is because of him. So this really has me thinking of what it is I want to do with my career. I told J about this guy leaving and how he is getting a 35% increase in pay, he deserves it that's for sure and my company has always been know to under pay some of its employee's (I feel I am one of them). J's solution is telling me I should take a technical class, the trouble is, I don't know if that's what I want to do. I often thought that working for a charity might be nice, lately thinking about the Make a Wish Foundation or MACC Fund. But I'm not exactly sure what they all do and if it would be something that would interest me. J also mentions Customer Service as that is some of my background, but what kind of Customer Service. I have a flexible schedule and I don't want to be at the beckon call of a client like in my old group. I thought of perhaps a Physical Therapist but I"m not sure about that either....I wish I know what I wanted to be when I grow up LOL.
Am I the only one that faces this issue? Is everyone happy in their jobs or know what they are good at?? I struggle to answer these questions as I was never pointed in any directions or motivated to try new things. I believe I need a change in my professional career but I'm just not sure how to go about doing that. I think part of my hesitation is that I do lack the confidence in my own skills. The gentleman that's leaving my group (he's also a friend) says that he wishes that I could see in myself what I'm worth and that I know more than I give myself credit for. Those are wonderful complements, I just wish that I could see that in myself....I'm not sure how to change my outlook. I'm hoping that taking control of my exercising and weight will help give me the confidence that I can make changes in other aspects of my life. As with my work outs, sometimes they are strong, some times they aren't but the point is, that I'm out there doing it...trying and NOT giving up.
So work....I know that a guy is leaving. I'm the only one that knows at this point as I could read it on his face. Now I'm very happy for him, but selfishly I wonder where this leaves me. He was always my "go to" guy and all the technical stuff I know is because of him. So this really has me thinking of what it is I want to do with my career. I told J about this guy leaving and how he is getting a 35% increase in pay, he deserves it that's for sure and my company has always been know to under pay some of its employee's (I feel I am one of them). J's solution is telling me I should take a technical class, the trouble is, I don't know if that's what I want to do. I often thought that working for a charity might be nice, lately thinking about the Make a Wish Foundation or MACC Fund. But I'm not exactly sure what they all do and if it would be something that would interest me. J also mentions Customer Service as that is some of my background, but what kind of Customer Service. I have a flexible schedule and I don't want to be at the beckon call of a client like in my old group. I thought of perhaps a Physical Therapist but I"m not sure about that either....I wish I know what I wanted to be when I grow up LOL.
Am I the only one that faces this issue? Is everyone happy in their jobs or know what they are good at?? I struggle to answer these questions as I was never pointed in any directions or motivated to try new things. I believe I need a change in my professional career but I'm just not sure how to go about doing that. I think part of my hesitation is that I do lack the confidence in my own skills. The gentleman that's leaving my group (he's also a friend) says that he wishes that I could see in myself what I'm worth and that I know more than I give myself credit for. Those are wonderful complements, I just wish that I could see that in myself....I'm not sure how to change my outlook. I'm hoping that taking control of my exercising and weight will help give me the confidence that I can make changes in other aspects of my life. As with my work outs, sometimes they are strong, some times they aren't but the point is, that I'm out there doing it...trying and NOT giving up.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Training starts this week
And I'm so excited!!! Tuesday is the first official 2 mile run. I've been getting stronger and I've seen my runs improve and 2 miles is easy for me (when I'm not super exhausted). Yesterday I worked out for 90 min while watching UP with the kids. It felt good and the few extra Super Bowl snacks I made and ate I didn't feel guilty eating :)
Not too much else going on. I say my mom this weekend at A's basketball game and I didn't talk to her much. She did mention how I didn't call to see if she was OK after her fall in our drive way. I just let the comment pass figuring it would be better to NOT respond. I'm tired of her games and I'm just saddened that I have such feelings. I though mom's were supposed to be like best friends. My SIL has a good relationship with her mom and truth be told I'm jealous. I always wanted to be close to my mom and when I was younger I was, I didn't share everything with her but I think I turned a blind eye to the way I was treated, compensating for not having a dad in my life. Now that I have my own family my eyes have been opened. Opened because while she was at Happy Hour with friends I was locked in my bedroom, kids calling for me to play with them but I couldn't. I kept quiet in my room so they wouldn't know. All of those types of things are creeping back up to my memory and it makes me angry. I just need to move past all of this as it is wasted energy, I'm just not sure how.
Anyway, brace yourselves for more snow!!
Not too much else going on. I say my mom this weekend at A's basketball game and I didn't talk to her much. She did mention how I didn't call to see if she was OK after her fall in our drive way. I just let the comment pass figuring it would be better to NOT respond. I'm tired of her games and I'm just saddened that I have such feelings. I though mom's were supposed to be like best friends. My SIL has a good relationship with her mom and truth be told I'm jealous. I always wanted to be close to my mom and when I was younger I was, I didn't share everything with her but I think I turned a blind eye to the way I was treated, compensating for not having a dad in my life. Now that I have my own family my eyes have been opened. Opened because while she was at Happy Hour with friends I was locked in my bedroom, kids calling for me to play with them but I couldn't. I kept quiet in my room so they wouldn't know. All of those types of things are creeping back up to my memory and it makes me angry. I just need to move past all of this as it is wasted energy, I'm just not sure how.
Anyway, brace yourselves for more snow!!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Good Workouts
The past 2 days I had good workouts. Last week I was tired and didn't work out as much as I had been doing so for me to be back on track this week is a good feeling. It wasn't a struggle, I didn't stop, I didn't make excuses I just went back to working out and I was just as strong with a couple days off. I think it's key that I listen to my body and do what I can. Something is better than nothing.
Last night I also watched some of the Biggest Loser. I've never watched the show before. J and I couldn't turn it off, we stayed glued to the TV to see their workouts, weigh In's and challenges. It was pretty interesting and motivating. Here are people that are very over weight and they want to live so they are making changes that are needed to make that happen. Even the guy that got booted off last night, they showed him now and he's still working with the tools he learned while he was on the show and he lost over 100lbs and he's still losing. It's great to see and gives me the inspiration that I can do this too. I don't have the amount of weight that those individuals need to lose but it shows that with hard work and making better food choices that I will become a healthier me and show my kids these life lessons as well.
I recall a few years ago after I did Weight Watchers the first time around I inspired someone to join and get healthy, well that's my goal...to inspire people. Over the years I've realized that I'm happiest when I feel I'm helping others. It doesn't matter if it's weight loss, through charity, through friendship, through helping the Girl Scout troop, it's about people and helping others....by helping others perhaps it will inspire them to do the same, kind of a Pay it Forward type of mentality. Perhaps that's corney but it is me we're talking about :)
Last night I also watched some of the Biggest Loser. I've never watched the show before. J and I couldn't turn it off, we stayed glued to the TV to see their workouts, weigh In's and challenges. It was pretty interesting and motivating. Here are people that are very over weight and they want to live so they are making changes that are needed to make that happen. Even the guy that got booted off last night, they showed him now and he's still working with the tools he learned while he was on the show and he lost over 100lbs and he's still losing. It's great to see and gives me the inspiration that I can do this too. I don't have the amount of weight that those individuals need to lose but it shows that with hard work and making better food choices that I will become a healthier me and show my kids these life lessons as well.
I recall a few years ago after I did Weight Watchers the first time around I inspired someone to join and get healthy, well that's my goal...to inspire people. Over the years I've realized that I'm happiest when I feel I'm helping others. It doesn't matter if it's weight loss, through charity, through friendship, through helping the Girl Scout troop, it's about people and helping others....by helping others perhaps it will inspire them to do the same, kind of a Pay it Forward type of mentality. Perhaps that's corney but it is me we're talking about :)
Monday, February 1, 2010
Good for the Soul
Friends and family are good for my soul. This weekend I had plans, first dinner with Joy and Joe on Friday at Tandoor (oh so yummy). I enjoy their company and the similarities we seem to share in our families, it helps me know that I am not the only one that faces issues with their parents. Time with them also helps me strive for a better workout. Both Joe and Joy are dedicated to working out and staying fit, this helps push me some too, giving me the confidence to strive for more.
Then Saturday I was hanging with my HCW's....all my weight watchers friends from around the state. These ladies have been so instrumental in my weight loss journey. They are all wonderful and have so many qualities that help me in my life. Having their support and being there for them is what the bond of friendship is all about.
I got home on Sunday and had to race to work concessions at Church for the Basketball tournament. I didn't get to see much of A's game but I believe they scored the most points they have all season. It will be a little more of a difficult day for her teammates as the 2 girls teams from St. Mary's played each other and I guess the other team that won has bigger heads on the teams and may boast or brag at school today. A doesn't have to worry about that drama which is good.
As a family we had dinner together and enjoyed each other's company. I gave my husband a little extra hug last night and snuggled a little more with the kids while tucking them into bed. I understand that it is family and friends that keep me whole and everyone that I have in my life is so important, more than words could ever express.
Thank you to all of my family and friends for being an important part of my life!
Then Saturday I was hanging with my HCW's....all my weight watchers friends from around the state. These ladies have been so instrumental in my weight loss journey. They are all wonderful and have so many qualities that help me in my life. Having their support and being there for them is what the bond of friendship is all about.
I got home on Sunday and had to race to work concessions at Church for the Basketball tournament. I didn't get to see much of A's game but I believe they scored the most points they have all season. It will be a little more of a difficult day for her teammates as the 2 girls teams from St. Mary's played each other and I guess the other team that won has bigger heads on the teams and may boast or brag at school today. A doesn't have to worry about that drama which is good.
As a family we had dinner together and enjoyed each other's company. I gave my husband a little extra hug last night and snuggled a little more with the kids while tucking them into bed. I understand that it is family and friends that keep me whole and everyone that I have in my life is so important, more than words could ever express.
Thank you to all of my family and friends for being an important part of my life!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Finally...
A's basketball team won their first game last night! They did great and really pulled it out. They lead for the whole game and at the end the other team tied it up but the girls got 1 more score under 2 minutes to go and then their defense held up and didn't let the other girls score. What a great moment for all the girls, they were jumping up and down and really excited and they deserved it. All their efforts and the efforts of the coaches are paying off so that's just wonderful to see. After the game the kids all went to Pop's (a custard stand), I had a friend coming over to work out during American Idol so I had J take her.
Another first, E came home yesterday with a form for a soccer camp that's coming up and he wants to join. He NEVER wants to join anything so I immediately said YES. It's $50 for 6 weeks but if he wants to then I don't want to deny him, especially since he showed the interest. And as luck would have it, I don't know where in the world I put the darn form. I can't find it ANYWHERE. So I had J write a note to the teacher asking to send home another one.
On the workout front, yesterday's workout was good, not great. I was tired (it was after 7 when we started) but I pulled through. I ate a piece of wheat bread with some peanut butter about 20 min before the work out and during my run I got a side stitch so I didn't run as much as I wanted to but it was still good. I then went to the elliptical (we switch so we do 30 min on the TM and 30 on the elliptical) and I put the resistance up higher and kept it at a certain speed and managed so all in all it was good. I'm happy to say that the scale also went in a downward motion again this week so that's just wonderful. My efforts are paying off and I feel as if I'm taking control once again! It feels great.
Another first, E came home yesterday with a form for a soccer camp that's coming up and he wants to join. He NEVER wants to join anything so I immediately said YES. It's $50 for 6 weeks but if he wants to then I don't want to deny him, especially since he showed the interest. And as luck would have it, I don't know where in the world I put the darn form. I can't find it ANYWHERE. So I had J write a note to the teacher asking to send home another one.
On the workout front, yesterday's workout was good, not great. I was tired (it was after 7 when we started) but I pulled through. I ate a piece of wheat bread with some peanut butter about 20 min before the work out and during my run I got a side stitch so I didn't run as much as I wanted to but it was still good. I then went to the elliptical (we switch so we do 30 min on the TM and 30 on the elliptical) and I put the resistance up higher and kept it at a certain speed and managed so all in all it was good. I'm happy to say that the scale also went in a downward motion again this week so that's just wonderful. My efforts are paying off and I feel as if I'm taking control once again! It feels great.
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