It's been too long....

Since my last blog post. I only have but a couple of readers so to you faithful please accept my apologies. So let's catch up shall we....

I headed for my annual trip to Myrtle Beach. It was filled with some much needed relaxation time. It was good to be at the ocean. The ocean is a place where I truly feel at peace. Walks on the beach were good for my soul.

I still have family living with me and I'm at my breaking point. I'm tired of the messes that they don't clean up. I'm tired of the TV being on all night and I can hear it (they are downstairs and I can hear it upstairs, it's the super power hearing I have). I'm tired of cooking for 2 families. I'm tired of my bills increasing. I'm tired of the lack of respect. What put me over the edge you may ask....well last week we were talking about them moving (July 15th is the deadline, we'll see if they meet that) and a check came in the mail to them for over $100. She asked if I wanted the check or the could pay some bills. There was also mention of her fiance being paid one last week from the temp agency and they had to fill out that paper work because they needed that check for a security deposit.

To back track just a moment, He did get hired on with the company he was working for so that is good news and something they were waiting for so they could move out and feel like their job situations were stable.

So back to the security deposit....I stated I thought you had the money saved for a security deposit, she replies with he spent it on online gaming. WHAT?!?!?! You've got to be kidding me!!!! I was furious and I ended the conversation because I would have said something very bad.

I feel like they have disrespected us. You are in my home because you had financial issues yet you lack the fore thought to save your money so you could move out. And if you get extra money you should be helping us out. But NOOOOOO You spend it on online gaming!! Very frustrating. I think It's making me sick so my stomach has been off for the last week. Today I finally feel somewhat better. It's just the whole thing is getting old and my patience is gone.

On a brighter note, my daughter hit a grand slam during her first softball game...I'm so proud. My son starts football camps this week, he's as excited as ever.

Hope you all are well!!! I hope to not have so much time in between updates going forward! :)

Pure JOY

The weekend was just Pure JOY. Race day was WONDERFUL. I started the run and I didn't think it was going to be a good day, I couldn't get my breath right and felt tired but then I just hit my groove.

The course was hilly (as they warned) but it was funny when we drove the course it didn't seem to be too bad with exception of one big hill. Well actually running it I could feel those hills. It wasn't so much the going up that was the hardest part....coming down was just as hard and I could feel my legs working overtime.

Mile 5 did yield some nice entertainment....the water station was manned by Pirates...Yep everyone was dressed up and it really made me smile. You just couldn't help but laugh and be happy that you were participating in the day's festivities. There was also a person dressed in a gorilla outfit that was at one of the water stations too. Good stuff.

I did finish, I wanted to finish in 2:45 but with the hills I was happy to finish in 2:48. I'll take it!!!

The remainder of the weekend was beautiful and I enjoyed the sites and tastes of Door County. Mother's Day was calm and peaceful and I didn't do much of anything, just the way I like it :)

What's on tap...a trip to Myrtle Beach and then I'll start to focus on some weight loss exercising before training starts up for the September 1/2.

EXCITEMENT

This weekend is the big 1/2 and I'm very excited. I don't care what my time is I'm just happy to be there and to finish.

My outdoor runs have been strong but unfortunately there haven't been that many runs outdoors because of weather. I don't have the clothing for cold weather or rain and I really can't afford to buy any so my long runs have been indoors. We'll see what the day brings, and like I said, I'm just there to finish and enjoy the beautiful setting.

Good Luck to Joy and Joe who are also participating. They're training has been amazing and I hope that one day their dedication and focus rubs off on me. :)

As for all the side things in life....it's stressful. I still have family living with me and each day I grow increasingly more irritated with them and there laziness. I try to be patient but there is only so much I can tolerate and I'm coming to my end.

I just continue to take lots of deep breaths.

Forever and a Day

Since I've been able to blog about anything. With the restrictions at work I can no longer blog or check blogs at work. It was actually part of my morning routine that I would complete so I kind of miss that.

But anyway, The 1/2 is coming up really soon and I'm very excited and feeling strong. I ran yesterday for 2 hours (I'm guessing a 10 mile run or so). I was stuck indoors as I don't have appropriate running gear for cold/snow. I felt strong and I definitely could keep going. My outdoor runs have been strong. I'm around a 10 minute mile (which is good for me). I know that my first miles are stronger than my last miles. At this point I don't care. I'm just there to finish and to believe in myself again. I'm looking forward to that feeling, the feeling that I can conquer anything.

Now off the topic or running....I am possibly looking at a vacation in Colorado....Estes Park area and definitely some time in the Rocky Mountains...any recommendations or information anyone can share.

Thanks!

Irritated

I got my annual increase today and it's 2%. Now I don't want to seem grateful because I am. I'm happy and thankful for my job and I have gone without a raise in the past. But I kicked ass in my performance last year and I'm not the only one and all we get is 2%. The company is making money so it's not for lack of a profit. It just is really disheartening. Why would I want to work so hard if I'm not going to be rewarded.

Well I will work hard, it's my nature. I have a very high work ethic and won't accept anything less than my all.

I just wanted to vent so thanks for listening.

On the running front, I got another new pair of shoes, the other new ones were no good, these new ones are a keeper. I really am excited to see the temps on the rise so I can hit some pavement baby!!!

New Shoes

I finally got myself fitted with some new running shoes. Only trouble is I'm not sure that I like them just yet. When I run they feel like my feet are falling asleep. Not sure if I just need to break them in or what. I've also been trying different pairs of socks incase that's the issue. I have one more pair to try and then I may need to take these back. But I do have to say the extra padding is very nice and refreshing!!

I did book my room for my 1/2 so I'm excited for that. I'm staying the whole weekend which should be very nice. I also booked a trip for Vegas coming up soon as well. Then in May I'll have Myrtle Beach. I'll be a traveling fool this year and I'm very happy about that. I do need some time away from the stresses at home. They continue to build up. I'm trying to stay on top of things and not let the little things bother me but it's frustrating falling over baby toys, the extra clutter that gets left laying around etc.

Tomorrow is weigh in...I'm hoping for another weekly loss so I can increase my speed.

Feeling Good

So for 3 straight weeks, I've been following my training schedule, I've been eating better and the scale is showing that my hard work is paying off. Typically I'd be up and down and would never have 3 weeks of a loss so I'm feeling very optimistic that good things are happening.

Now the weight I'm at (sorry, I'll never share that number)I haven't been able to crack this number now for months and months and months. I'm hoping that next week, I'll move below this number and get past this "hump".

My training has been going good. I've taken it upon myself to run an hour my weekly runs. The training says 4 miles (usually Monday's and Wednesdays) but since I'm trying to get healthy and strong I decided an hour would be a good idea. Saturday I ran 80 min and I felt really good. I still need new shoes and then I'm sure I'd feel GREAT. I don't know why I just won't go and get them. It's the cost that is keeping me from going and I know I shouldn't let that be a factor. I just need to go and do it.

And it's the start of Lent today, I've given up coffee and soda. I've been having too much of each lately. I am also going to try and cut down on my sweet intake as well.